Sleepy.
Haha yea taking a break from the weird posts thingy but I'm not gonna say much. I'm too sleepy to think right now. We had Batch Rep voting yesterday. I think I voted for the right person. My other choice kinda disappointed me today and I can't say anything that would not make this obvious so I'm not gonna say anything. I have perfect confidence in the male rep I voted for, though I think he knows who he is and his ego is gonna swell after he reads this. >_> No one give him a link to my blog. Haha I'm kinda surprised I didn't want to run for batch rep though, I guess that's good. I mean it would look good on my resume and all that but nah. Too much bad experience. I just want to enjoy myself now.
Sleepy.
Mmn I signed up for the Uni Magazine and gave them a link to my blog. I really should write something nice for them to accept me but I'm too tired after coming back late everyday. I joined 5 clubs. X/ Big mistake. I think I'm gonna drop Anime club. Honestly not into anime anymore but it's the cosplaying that should be fun. X/ Haha decisions, decisions.
SHIT! I have this horrible cough and I have a singing performance 2moro. I am screwed. I should pull out lar... If I cough into the mic, no one needs to sing d. They won't be able to hear anyone else. Gargh, my throat is so itchy.
I miss writing but no inspiration... The only writing I've done is the last 2 weird posts. I actually had a couple more posts planned out but for reasons I (may or may not) disclose later, they are not very suitable. Either to the theme I've been trying to get or because of the above reason. Why is there no creative writing club in Monash? Ok fine, I can't write on prompts, only on sudden inspiration but still...it should be fun. Mmn my muse won't leave me alone... Tell her/him/it I'm too sleepy to write anything coherent. X/ I shouldn't have made it verse by verse, now there's too many parts to write. Maybe I'll just get through the chorus once. X/ I just re-read the first part, and it looks like it's gonna end up a love story... X/ LOLZ?
K lar. I'm lazy and sleepy d. I think I'm gonna go sleep if I can get the mood to get myself off this couch. X/ K lar guyz. Nightz
Wednesday, March 07, 2012
Sunday, March 04, 2012
'The Only Time She Told Me She Hated Me Out Loud'
Sorry here's the next part. Again, I have very little idea what I'm going for here so you can bypass this if you want. Haven't written in ages so it might just be my muse acting up. Trigger: Suicide Ideation
Alucia never yelled; she was nothing like me. Hers was a cold anger, with a sharp tongue and cruel words. She was furious now, eyes ablaze and with a hint of the crude vulgarity she could only have picked up from me. "You lazy pig! You bitch! I hope you are happy now. You've ruined everything!"
I refused to look at her; I wouldn't have been able to see her if I tried, not with the tears clouding my vision. I pulled my legs closer to myself, perhaps understanding for once the need for the foetal position the characters in movies adopt.
"We could have gotten out of here. Everything you've wanted, we've wanted and worked for. How could you just ruin everything like that?"
"I'm sorry." I choked out. Feelings of utter helplessness and self-hatred engulfed me. I hadn't meant for it to turn out this way. I thought I did my best, I actually thought...
"You always do this. You always spoil anything possibly good in our life. You lazy, over-confident ass." Then she did what I never imagined she could, she began to cry. It was more tears of anger and frustration than tears of grief but they were tears none the less.
It was then perhaps I knew I had hit rock-bottom. I silenced a wail into my pillow. "I tr...ied. I really did." I knew I was trying to convince myself more than her. I had to.
"Look at me and repeat that. I know you, Alucia. I know everything that goes through your pathetic little head. This...don't give me the bullshit that you tried your best. You didn't do shit."
"Please stop." I sobbed into my pillow. No more. It didn't matter if it was the truth. I couldn't hear this anymore. I knew how badly I'd screwed up. It hurt too much to think about it anymore but she won't let me stop but I deserved it. I deserved every inch of her verbal beatdown.
She laughed and more tears fell from her eyes. "I hate you. You are a total and utter failure. I hate you. I don't even care about them, about your family and I already know what a disappointment you are. I feel sorry for them." She paused, perhaps to catch her breath but I could hear her mind turning from here to deal the perfect final blow. "Go kill yourself. You said you were going to right? Two years ago, for less, for much less. Go, go kill yourself and save everyone so much grief and disappointment."
She left but her words haunted the air. In my mind's eye, I saw it. A knife and two perfect slices across my wrists. It would be so easy and everything would stop. This pain would stop, her voice would stop. But I didn't move, I wasn't going to do it, I knew myself that well at least. I was too much of a coward. I hugged myself tighter as the sobbing started afresh.
And I know that I
I sometimes tend to lose my temper
And I cross the line
Yeah that's the truth
Alucia never yelled; she was nothing like me. Hers was a cold anger, with a sharp tongue and cruel words. She was furious now, eyes ablaze and with a hint of the crude vulgarity she could only have picked up from me. "You lazy pig! You bitch! I hope you are happy now. You've ruined everything!"
I refused to look at her; I wouldn't have been able to see her if I tried, not with the tears clouding my vision. I pulled my legs closer to myself, perhaps understanding for once the need for the foetal position the characters in movies adopt.
"We could have gotten out of here. Everything you've wanted, we've wanted and worked for. How could you just ruin everything like that?"
"I'm sorry." I choked out. Feelings of utter helplessness and self-hatred engulfed me. I hadn't meant for it to turn out this way. I thought I did my best, I actually thought...
"You always do this. You always spoil anything possibly good in our life. You lazy, over-confident ass." Then she did what I never imagined she could, she began to cry. It was more tears of anger and frustration than tears of grief but they were tears none the less.
It was then perhaps I knew I had hit rock-bottom. I silenced a wail into my pillow. "I tr...ied. I really did." I knew I was trying to convince myself more than her. I had to.
"Look at me and repeat that. I know you, Alucia. I know everything that goes through your pathetic little head. This...don't give me the bullshit that you tried your best. You didn't do shit."
"Please stop." I sobbed into my pillow. No more. It didn't matter if it was the truth. I couldn't hear this anymore. I knew how badly I'd screwed up. It hurt too much to think about it anymore but she won't let me stop but I deserved it. I deserved every inch of her verbal beatdown.
She laughed and more tears fell from her eyes. "I hate you. You are a total and utter failure. I hate you. I don't even care about them, about your family and I already know what a disappointment you are. I feel sorry for them." She paused, perhaps to catch her breath but I could hear her mind turning from here to deal the perfect final blow. "Go kill yourself. You said you were going to right? Two years ago, for less, for much less. Go, go kill yourself and save everyone so much grief and disappointment."
She left but her words haunted the air. In my mind's eye, I saw it. A knife and two perfect slices across my wrists. It would be so easy and everything would stop. This pain would stop, her voice would stop. But I didn't move, I wasn't going to do it, I knew myself that well at least. I was too much of a coward. I hugged myself tighter as the sobbing started afresh.
And I know that I
I sometimes tend to lose my temper
And I cross the line
Yeah that's the truth
Saturday, March 03, 2012
An Innocent Chat
First off, I just want to say this is not a blog entry. Well I mean it is but not an entry exactly, if you get me. It's not really a story either. It's just some random writings. You don't have to read it if you don't want to. Even I have very little idea about what this is about. (Might actually be the first in a long series of posts...Sorry)
"It's the 10th time you heard this song. Aren't you bored?"
"No."
"Do you have to listen to the songs we like a million times until we get bored of it in the same week."
"Yes."
"Alucia-"
"Not Alucia."
"-it'd be nice to actually have songs to listen to every now and then. Yes, I am getting bored of Thousand Years."
She ignored me as usual. She's been calling me Alucia for ages, I never understood why. It's the only thing she's ever called me. "It's nice for plotting."
I didn't look at her but I could feel her eyeroll. "Right, your stories are crap. Especially the ones you form in your head. Mary Sue much?" She zoned out a little, "Mmn, Insanity of Grief was favourited."
"I know. No reviews though. Would love to know how to improve."
She rolled her eyes, "Right. You'd take it as a personal attack and emo. Your stories suck by the way. How did you even get a positive review is beyond me."
I gritted my teeth but ignored her.
"Are you sure they like you?" I was about to ask who she was talking about when a couple of faces flashed in my mind. "Then again they might, they don't know you yet. How long do you think they'd last?"
It was my turn to roll my eyes. "Fuck off. Not in the mood."
She smirked, "Do they know how much you curse? Do they know what a bitch you are in your head? Well...at least you think it's in your head. Wanna ask your old classmates? How many of them liked you again?"
"I had a good time. Don't spoil my mood."
"Riiiiiiight and how many people did you impose on to 'have fun'? How many of them actually enjoyed your company?"
"I told you to piss off."
She grabbed my wrist, "No one likes you. Not even..." She trailed off.
Not even you. I tugged my hand back. "I know..." A glance back to the screen, "Anything to watch? I'm bored." She went on, on shows I'd load but end up not watching. Alucia hated me. It was something I knew all along. It didn't surprise me or even make me upset, don't get me wrong. She was very vocal of her distaste for me. I don't know why I'm sad though. I hate her too right?
Cold as ice
And more bitter than a December
Winter night
That's how I treated you
"It's the 10th time you heard this song. Aren't you bored?"
"No."
"Do you have to listen to the songs we like a million times until we get bored of it in the same week."
"Yes."
"Alucia-"
"Not Alucia."
"-it'd be nice to actually have songs to listen to every now and then. Yes, I am getting bored of Thousand Years."
She ignored me as usual. She's been calling me Alucia for ages, I never understood why. It's the only thing she's ever called me. "It's nice for plotting."
I didn't look at her but I could feel her eyeroll. "Right, your stories are crap. Especially the ones you form in your head. Mary Sue much?" She zoned out a little, "Mmn, Insanity of Grief was favourited."
"I know. No reviews though. Would love to know how to improve."
She rolled her eyes, "Right. You'd take it as a personal attack and emo. Your stories suck by the way. How did you even get a positive review is beyond me."
I gritted my teeth but ignored her.
"Are you sure they like you?" I was about to ask who she was talking about when a couple of faces flashed in my mind. "Then again they might, they don't know you yet. How long do you think they'd last?"
It was my turn to roll my eyes. "Fuck off. Not in the mood."
She smirked, "Do they know how much you curse? Do they know what a bitch you are in your head? Well...at least you think it's in your head. Wanna ask your old classmates? How many of them liked you again?"
"I had a good time. Don't spoil my mood."
"Riiiiiiight and how many people did you impose on to 'have fun'? How many of them actually enjoyed your company?"
"I told you to piss off."
She grabbed my wrist, "No one likes you. Not even..." She trailed off.
Not even you. I tugged my hand back. "I know..." A glance back to the screen, "Anything to watch? I'm bored." She went on, on shows I'd load but end up not watching. Alucia hated me. It was something I knew all along. It didn't surprise me or even make me upset, don't get me wrong. She was very vocal of her distaste for me. I don't know why I'm sad though. I hate her too right?
Cold as ice
And more bitter than a December
Winter night
That's how I treated you
Friday, March 02, 2012
HEYA!!!!!!
Sitting in the Uni library now. Haha I'm early to class. Mwahahahahahaha. Don't get used to it. Haha it's almost the end of the first week of Monash and to quote another blog I read some time ago, I can't believe I've been a Med Student for 2 weeks.
I think I'll start with the life. It doesn't seem so bad after I settle down a little. At first I was going mad because of the amount of prescribed reading we had to do but once I actually got the books it was almost the same notes as the lecturer. I think the lecturer even used the same book. >_> So far it's been mostly lectures. As usual, for anyone who knows me, I keep zoning out. I can't concentrate on most of the lectures. Thank God the post up lecturer notes and that most of what we learned is same/easier than A-Levels (for now). I really can't concentrate. It's either zoning out, or doing other work, or facebooking. LOLZ But yea... scared that this will continue.
Hmn what else. Oh we had our first Clinical class this week. Mostly they just taught us how to talk/interview the patient. It's kinda intimidating and there's a strict guideline on the procedure so I'm scared I miss something. But it's only the first class so maybe it gets better. Speaking of clinical, we are going to a clinic in 2 weeks time. SCARY!!!!! I don't think I'm ready to talk to patients yet. Or maybe it's just literal visiting, I dunno but it's still scary as hell. Sorry, introvert, though my friends would probably disagree but my tutors would agree. Haha I really should participate more in class. Thing is I have to turn the sentence a couple times in my head, make sure it's fine and it doesn't sound stupid. By then, someone else would have spewed the answer.
OR we have a complete (insert random curse word) in our group that doesn't give anyone else the chance to speak. Ok I'm not gonna post the link on FB so hopefully that someone doesn't notice but I needed to get that out. I mean literally no one else has the chance to speak with that person around. But other than this person I absolutely LOVE my PBL group. Haha they are also my 'gang' at the moment so yea. AND THEY READ!!! LOLZ I mean I have found something in common with them. Haha crazy about Final Fantasy; they read Sherlock Holmes & Harry Potter, they can't stand Twillight or Korean shows. AND KARAOKE. LOLZ It's like I'm in heaven. Haha Definitely making friends faster than I expected (well friends to me, dunno about them, haha). I know it will be 3-6 months more but I just can't bare the thought of changing groups. Haha more friends but I get along with everyone in my group and we all have good chemistry. Haha THEN AGAIN, everyone may just hate me and I didn't know it like the certain someone I talked about earlier.
Alright then class is gonna start soon. Very short day today then KARAOKE!!!! Mwahahahahahaha My duet partner ffk today. :( Doubt anyone else knows how to sing Time To Say Goodbye. Oh well. Forever Solo. Haha not gonna used Forever Alone and tempt fate. Haha I think I might actually be happy here. :)
Sitting in the Uni library now. Haha I'm early to class. Mwahahahahahaha. Don't get used to it. Haha it's almost the end of the first week of Monash and to quote another blog I read some time ago, I can't believe I've been a Med Student for 2 weeks.
I think I'll start with the life. It doesn't seem so bad after I settle down a little. At first I was going mad because of the amount of prescribed reading we had to do but once I actually got the books it was almost the same notes as the lecturer. I think the lecturer even used the same book. >_> So far it's been mostly lectures. As usual, for anyone who knows me, I keep zoning out. I can't concentrate on most of the lectures. Thank God the post up lecturer notes and that most of what we learned is same/easier than A-Levels (for now). I really can't concentrate. It's either zoning out, or doing other work, or facebooking. LOLZ But yea... scared that this will continue.
Hmn what else. Oh we had our first Clinical class this week. Mostly they just taught us how to talk/interview the patient. It's kinda intimidating and there's a strict guideline on the procedure so I'm scared I miss something. But it's only the first class so maybe it gets better. Speaking of clinical, we are going to a clinic in 2 weeks time. SCARY!!!!! I don't think I'm ready to talk to patients yet. Or maybe it's just literal visiting, I dunno but it's still scary as hell. Sorry, introvert, though my friends would probably disagree but my tutors would agree. Haha I really should participate more in class. Thing is I have to turn the sentence a couple times in my head, make sure it's fine and it doesn't sound stupid. By then, someone else would have spewed the answer.
OR we have a complete (insert random curse word) in our group that doesn't give anyone else the chance to speak. Ok I'm not gonna post the link on FB so hopefully that someone doesn't notice but I needed to get that out. I mean literally no one else has the chance to speak with that person around. But other than this person I absolutely LOVE my PBL group. Haha they are also my 'gang' at the moment so yea. AND THEY READ!!! LOLZ I mean I have found something in common with them. Haha crazy about Final Fantasy; they read Sherlock Holmes & Harry Potter, they can't stand Twillight or Korean shows. AND KARAOKE. LOLZ It's like I'm in heaven. Haha Definitely making friends faster than I expected (well friends to me, dunno about them, haha). I know it will be 3-6 months more but I just can't bare the thought of changing groups. Haha more friends but I get along with everyone in my group and we all have good chemistry. Haha THEN AGAIN, everyone may just hate me and I didn't know it like the certain someone I talked about earlier.
Alright then class is gonna start soon. Very short day today then KARAOKE!!!! Mwahahahahahaha My duet partner ffk today. :( Doubt anyone else knows how to sing Time To Say Goodbye. Oh well. Forever Solo. Haha not gonna used Forever Alone and tempt fate. Haha I think I might actually be happy here. :)
Monday, February 20, 2012
Tomorrow's the big day. Haha made the mistake of not reminding my mom to wake me up for lunch so now, I think I'm only gonna sleep at 5am. Yikes. Yea, that's my timetable for you. I blame Sherlock, rewatching it kept me up the whole night.
So conclusion of all that fussing on what to wear for Uni, I've decided (drum roll) Jeans, T-shirt/blouse, shoes and no make-up or contacts. LOLZ What I usually wear for college anyway. A bit hard when asking for opinion. My mom kept complaining why I want to dress so nice, my bros ke ep asking me to dress nicer. X/ Thanks... I miss having friends going that I can bug the whole night before about what they are wearing.
I'm dressing up for second day though, dress (not really), contacts and make-up. Since we are taking pictures for our ID and the orientation is seperated to course based, might as well look good. I just don't want to attract the wrong crowd though, as in those who care alot about how they dress, look etc. Not that there's anything wrong with them, I just think it's too tiring (for me) to keep up. Then again, my college gang turned me into a girl. I never bothered with things like toning and moisturising among other things until I met them. Not exactly a bad thing but I dunno. If my friends dress up, I will too and again too much work and care for my part that I can't stand.
Urgh had a long discussion about religion with my mom the other day. I think she's not gonna force me to go to church anymore if I don't want to. But... I know if I leave the church now, I'd leave it for good. Just a feeling, at least if I keep going back there is always a chance my faith will come back. I told my mom clearly that once I go to JB I know I'm probably never gonna drag myself to church (too lazy among other things). Like I said in my previous post, I just don't care I guess. I do think there is someone upstairs, a god, a higher power, fate etc. I just don't believe that he is really that person from the bible or the torah or the quran or the scriptures nor do I believe that he isn't. And that is the extent of religion, there is a God, fullstop. Anything else doesn't really matter, not to me at least.
Well I guess that's all that's left to update. I'm hungry alot now I realize...maybe it's just my clock being upside down. Urgh I have no idea how to deal with the time but I guess I'll adjust. I still haven't decided whether to hang with anyone tomorrow or attack out on my own. I mean first day is a little hard to find coursemates since everyone is in the same hall. So cruel or pessimistic as it is, making friends from another course is a waste of time since you'd probably never talk to each other again. Same school might be ok but I'm leaning on same course.
Oooo now I found out that at camp we are going to be grouped with our PCL (similar to PBL) group mates I'm rather pleased. I think we will have no choice but to actually make friends with our group then since we will be together for the whole sem. It does do a little ganging a bit early, but haha I just want friends, I'm not gonna complain. I think it will take awhile but I'll find my niche eventually.
Haha ok guys, can't think of anything left to say. If I'm not too sleepy, I'll let ya know how things go tomorrow but I doubt there'd be anything interesting. Not tomorrow at least. Maybe I'll update on Tuesday night (after I pack my bags X/) Haha k then, ciaoz
So conclusion of all that fussing on what to wear for Uni, I've decided (drum roll) Jeans, T-shirt/blouse, shoes and no make-up or contacts. LOLZ What I usually wear for college anyway. A bit hard when asking for opinion. My mom kept complaining why I want to dress so nice, my bros ke ep asking me to dress nicer. X/ Thanks... I miss having friends going that I can bug the whole night before about what they are wearing.
I'm dressing up for second day though, dress (not really), contacts and make-up. Since we are taking pictures for our ID and the orientation is seperated to course based, might as well look good. I just don't want to attract the wrong crowd though, as in those who care alot about how they dress, look etc. Not that there's anything wrong with them, I just think it's too tiring (for me) to keep up. Then again, my college gang turned me into a girl. I never bothered with things like toning and moisturising among other things until I met them. Not exactly a bad thing but I dunno. If my friends dress up, I will too and again too much work and care for my part that I can't stand.
Urgh had a long discussion about religion with my mom the other day. I think she's not gonna force me to go to church anymore if I don't want to. But... I know if I leave the church now, I'd leave it for good. Just a feeling, at least if I keep going back there is always a chance my faith will come back. I told my mom clearly that once I go to JB I know I'm probably never gonna drag myself to church (too lazy among other things). Like I said in my previous post, I just don't care I guess. I do think there is someone upstairs, a god, a higher power, fate etc. I just don't believe that he is really that person from the bible or the torah or the quran or the scriptures nor do I believe that he isn't. And that is the extent of religion, there is a God, fullstop. Anything else doesn't really matter, not to me at least.
Well I guess that's all that's left to update. I'm hungry alot now I realize...maybe it's just my clock being upside down. Urgh I have no idea how to deal with the time but I guess I'll adjust. I still haven't decided whether to hang with anyone tomorrow or attack out on my own. I mean first day is a little hard to find coursemates since everyone is in the same hall. So cruel or pessimistic as it is, making friends from another course is a waste of time since you'd probably never talk to each other again. Same school might be ok but I'm leaning on same course.
Oooo now I found out that at camp we are going to be grouped with our PCL (similar to PBL) group mates I'm rather pleased. I think we will have no choice but to actually make friends with our group then since we will be together for the whole sem. It does do a little ganging a bit early, but haha I just want friends, I'm not gonna complain. I think it will take awhile but I'll find my niche eventually.
Haha ok guys, can't think of anything left to say. If I'm not too sleepy, I'll let ya know how things go tomorrow but I doubt there'd be anything interesting. Not tomorrow at least. Maybe I'll update on Tuesday night (after I pack my bags X/) Haha k then, ciaoz
Wednesday, February 15, 2012
I told myself I haven't updated in ages so I should write something. Then I reread my posts and realized I just posted something a few days back...now I'm lazy. XD
Wellllll... I'm starting Uni in 5 days time. I'm beyond excited. Hahaha anyone else who lives online (Shu Whey, Aisyah, Li Chin) will probably testify to that. Haha (What to wear? What bag to use? Should I wear makeup? Should I hang with my old college mates on the first day or attack the friendship pool?) Haha yea...it's times like these I feel like a girl...finicky. Lolz... Still really excited though. One week has never passed any slower. Haha give it a month or two, I'd be begging for classes to end.
(I have no idea what the hell is wrong with the Iphone 4 but I am going to kill someone soon)
Wow...Monash University student. Still can't believe it. I mean I'm 20. I don't feel old. Then again most, if not 99% of my friends already started Uni. I still can't believe it... I don't know what to expect honestly. I love how A-Levels was such a balance between school and uni that it may not even feel that big of a leap. Good god, projects... I really hope there are alot of group work because I may never remember to complete them on time. Nonono I bought the diary JUST so I can be more organized. List my to-do list and follow it. I'm not gonna screw med-school. Too pricey.
(I'm starving. Why didn't I eat dinner again? Right...because I had lunch at 4/5. X/)
I'm even considering getting proper contacts and wearing them everyday...But I'm so lazy. I dunno whether it's because mine are korean made cheap knockoffs but my eyes are so tired by the end of the day. And if I dun wear them everyday, I really hardly ever touch them. I mean of course everyone looks better without glasses...but still...lazy. I don't think I look that different with or without glasses but of course I've memorized my face, of course I won't think that.
Ok I admit, there is a reason (other than laziness) why I'm not keen on wearing contacts and make-up (during the first week at least). For this I blame Taylor Swift or at least similar movies/videos etc. I'm not gonna maintain the makeup that's for sure. Lazy is not even begin to cover it. 2 weeks at the most. Y'know when you are used to seeing someone dressed well all the time and suddenly they don't it's like woah, what the hell happened? Vice versa for those who hardly dress up and suddenly do, it's like they clean up nicely. I dunno if I'm getting my point across but yea big reason why. In college it was fine cause my group of people wore glasses and didn't wear make-up so I fit in. I don't know what kind of friends I'm gonna make. Besides a certain friend of mine (who shall not be named but she knows who she is) wears makeup to college daily now...I kinda feel if she does it then why the bloody hell am I not. Haha...yea don't follow other people and all that shit but I dunno. Contacts or no contacts. Makeup of first 2 days or no makeup.... Decisions Decisions.
(Now I'm sure I'm hungry not bored. Too lazy to make something to eat. No CNY cookies left either... Yikes)
Haven't gotten any news from Maxis yet. I think I didn't get it. You can tell how selfish I am by being glad it didn't clash with my orientation week... Maybe I was a little over-confident. I kinda expected to go to the second round at least. At least even if I didn't get it then, it would mean that there simply are people better than me instead of me not being good enough. Stupid stupid stupid. The worse part is I can't think what I did wrong. I thought I did pretty well. I answered all the questions. Only stumbled at the change malaysia question. I asked her did how could I improve myself, she couldn't give me an answer so I assumed it meant I'd done well in her books. I guess I'm just not as good as I've been led to believe.
(My elbows are raw. i wonder if it's because they've been rubbing the leather for so long. I really should move.)
Well I guess that's it then. If I'm not sleepy I'd probably post something about orientation. Though I'd probably forget about it. The first day seems pretty boring but it's the second day I'm looking forward to. Feel a bit weird about choosing my own timetable tho...or med students may not have it since we are not that big of a batch. I mean tutorials and lab, we are assigned so maybe thats the timetable we get to decide. Yikes, so not confident with my choosing abilities. Haha knowing me, I'd probably choose the times none of my friends go to. Ok then guyz, ciaoz.
Wellllll... I'm starting Uni in 5 days time. I'm beyond excited. Hahaha anyone else who lives online (Shu Whey, Aisyah, Li Chin) will probably testify to that. Haha (What to wear? What bag to use? Should I wear makeup? Should I hang with my old college mates on the first day or attack the friendship pool?) Haha yea...it's times like these I feel like a girl...finicky. Lolz... Still really excited though. One week has never passed any slower. Haha give it a month or two, I'd be begging for classes to end.
(I have no idea what the hell is wrong with the Iphone 4 but I am going to kill someone soon)
Wow...Monash University student. Still can't believe it. I mean I'm 20. I don't feel old. Then again most, if not 99% of my friends already started Uni. I still can't believe it... I don't know what to expect honestly. I love how A-Levels was such a balance between school and uni that it may not even feel that big of a leap. Good god, projects... I really hope there are alot of group work because I may never remember to complete them on time. Nonono I bought the diary JUST so I can be more organized. List my to-do list and follow it. I'm not gonna screw med-school. Too pricey.
(I'm starving. Why didn't I eat dinner again? Right...because I had lunch at 4/5. X/)
I'm even considering getting proper contacts and wearing them everyday...But I'm so lazy. I dunno whether it's because mine are korean made cheap knockoffs but my eyes are so tired by the end of the day. And if I dun wear them everyday, I really hardly ever touch them. I mean of course everyone looks better without glasses...but still...lazy. I don't think I look that different with or without glasses but of course I've memorized my face, of course I won't think that.
Ok I admit, there is a reason (other than laziness) why I'm not keen on wearing contacts and make-up (during the first week at least). For this I blame Taylor Swift or at least similar movies/videos etc. I'm not gonna maintain the makeup that's for sure. Lazy is not even begin to cover it. 2 weeks at the most. Y'know when you are used to seeing someone dressed well all the time and suddenly they don't it's like woah, what the hell happened? Vice versa for those who hardly dress up and suddenly do, it's like they clean up nicely. I dunno if I'm getting my point across but yea big reason why. In college it was fine cause my group of people wore glasses and didn't wear make-up so I fit in. I don't know what kind of friends I'm gonna make. Besides a certain friend of mine (who shall not be named but she knows who she is) wears makeup to college daily now...I kinda feel if she does it then why the bloody hell am I not. Haha...yea don't follow other people and all that shit but I dunno. Contacts or no contacts. Makeup of first 2 days or no makeup.... Decisions Decisions.
(Now I'm sure I'm hungry not bored. Too lazy to make something to eat. No CNY cookies left either... Yikes)
Haven't gotten any news from Maxis yet. I think I didn't get it. You can tell how selfish I am by being glad it didn't clash with my orientation week... Maybe I was a little over-confident. I kinda expected to go to the second round at least. At least even if I didn't get it then, it would mean that there simply are people better than me instead of me not being good enough. Stupid stupid stupid. The worse part is I can't think what I did wrong. I thought I did pretty well. I answered all the questions. Only stumbled at the change malaysia question. I asked her did how could I improve myself, she couldn't give me an answer so I assumed it meant I'd done well in her books. I guess I'm just not as good as I've been led to believe.
(My elbows are raw. i wonder if it's because they've been rubbing the leather for so long. I really should move.)
Well I guess that's it then. If I'm not sleepy I'd probably post something about orientation. Though I'd probably forget about it. The first day seems pretty boring but it's the second day I'm looking forward to. Feel a bit weird about choosing my own timetable tho...or med students may not have it since we are not that big of a batch. I mean tutorials and lab, we are assigned so maybe thats the timetable we get to decide. Yikes, so not confident with my choosing abilities. Haha knowing me, I'd probably choose the times none of my friends go to. Ok then guyz, ciaoz.
Friday, February 03, 2012
Had an interesting convo about religion yesterday. Realized I sounded like an atheist. Haha I dunno why I said what I did. Secret thoughts or words of someone trying too hard. It wasn't even choosing the opposite side of the argument either cause it was a balanced side. Not even a debate, just venting.
"I think the world would be better without religion."
Paraphrasing of course but something like that. Of course it was the extremists on my mind but not my sole concern. Is this related to my anti-homophobia? Perhaps. Religion may not be the origin of homophobia (I don't think Buddhism is anti-homo but I've met many homophobes from there) but it's an excuse as well as a body to spread it.
I don't even know how I feel about the big man upstairs really. I don't think I anti-him. I'm not even sure if I disbelieve he exists but not in an agnostic sense. I dunno how to describe agnostic other than apathy about the big man and I think I'm too (as my horoscopes say) opinionated to rely on apathy. I don't like the whole there is nothing after you die thing which is honestly more depressing for me than hell is. (Not saying I'd prefer hell mind you. I can't even stand a puny needle)
Maybe it's cause I'm so used to being religious. I mean I don't think i was ever a mindless drone really. (Thanks to Prince of Egypt I always hated that particular story and my God could not possibly be like that.) But I dunno... when something scares me (which is alot since I'm up alone at 3/4 most nights) I make the sign of the cross and a small prayer but... I honestly don't know how I feel about the whole thing.
I still identify myself as a Catholic I guess... but I'd probably call myself an Agnostic just because of the indecision even if that doesn't accurately define who I am. I think with or without religion I'm still the same person. Even during my 'religious' stages I never really thought, I'm not gonna have pre-marital sex because God says so but because it's not me, not my culture and not what I believe in. Even after I heard the whole no condom thing, I was like que sera sera, it's an odd rule after all.
I think people worry too much about what the big man upstairs think. I guess it's not necessarily a bad thing, some actually try to be a better person because of it but I think it's really tiring mission. To get into the pearly gates I mean. I dunno, there's already enough of this life to worry about than to worry about the afterlife as well.
The problem about religion is that there is no one you can talk to about this. A religious person will try to convert you or tell you what you are doing wrong, same with Atheists(except they'll tell you, you are right on the road to sanity). The extremist of both batches hate each other so much but they have so much in common. Even agnostics I have tried to talk to haven't helped, and religion is such a sensitive subject that you can't say the wrong thing.
What if I choose not to care about the big man? Does that make me a hypocrite? Refusing to go to church because I feel nothing there but making a sign of the cross for comfort. I went for a couple of months being unreligious to a couple of months being religious. It was definitely less confusing then. I don't even scoff at the ridiculousness of the bible anymore I just don't care about it. I feel defensive when people attack catholics or even the pope but I can't help feel it's more of a reflex action or like it's a personal attack on me. I dunno...I'm so confused.
I don't love him.
I don't hate him.
I don't believe he's there.
I don't believe there's no God.
But I can't bring myself not to care.
"I think the world would be better without religion."
Paraphrasing of course but something like that. Of course it was the extremists on my mind but not my sole concern. Is this related to my anti-homophobia? Perhaps. Religion may not be the origin of homophobia (I don't think Buddhism is anti-homo but I've met many homophobes from there) but it's an excuse as well as a body to spread it.
I don't even know how I feel about the big man upstairs really. I don't think I anti-him. I'm not even sure if I disbelieve he exists but not in an agnostic sense. I dunno how to describe agnostic other than apathy about the big man and I think I'm too (as my horoscopes say) opinionated to rely on apathy. I don't like the whole there is nothing after you die thing which is honestly more depressing for me than hell is. (Not saying I'd prefer hell mind you. I can't even stand a puny needle)
Maybe it's cause I'm so used to being religious. I mean I don't think i was ever a mindless drone really. (Thanks to Prince of Egypt I always hated that particular story and my God could not possibly be like that.) But I dunno... when something scares me (which is alot since I'm up alone at 3/4 most nights) I make the sign of the cross and a small prayer but... I honestly don't know how I feel about the whole thing.
I still identify myself as a Catholic I guess... but I'd probably call myself an Agnostic just because of the indecision even if that doesn't accurately define who I am. I think with or without religion I'm still the same person. Even during my 'religious' stages I never really thought, I'm not gonna have pre-marital sex because God says so but because it's not me, not my culture and not what I believe in. Even after I heard the whole no condom thing, I was like que sera sera, it's an odd rule after all.
I think people worry too much about what the big man upstairs think. I guess it's not necessarily a bad thing, some actually try to be a better person because of it but I think it's really tiring mission. To get into the pearly gates I mean. I dunno, there's already enough of this life to worry about than to worry about the afterlife as well.
The problem about religion is that there is no one you can talk to about this. A religious person will try to convert you or tell you what you are doing wrong, same with Atheists(except they'll tell you, you are right on the road to sanity). The extremist of both batches hate each other so much but they have so much in common. Even agnostics I have tried to talk to haven't helped, and religion is such a sensitive subject that you can't say the wrong thing.
What if I choose not to care about the big man? Does that make me a hypocrite? Refusing to go to church because I feel nothing there but making a sign of the cross for comfort. I went for a couple of months being unreligious to a couple of months being religious. It was definitely less confusing then. I don't even scoff at the ridiculousness of the bible anymore I just don't care about it. I feel defensive when people attack catholics or even the pope but I can't help feel it's more of a reflex action or like it's a personal attack on me. I dunno...I'm so confused.
I don't love him.
I don't hate him.
I don't believe he's there.
I don't believe there's no God.
But I can't bring myself not to care.
Thursday, December 15, 2011
Wednesday, December 14, 2011
Second Vlog Oops
Heya so as you can see I'm posting my second video. Actually I'm quite interested to do this permanently so watch the vid and let me know whether I should change my style or will I start losing viewers. (I'm hungry) Er it's half the length of the previous video thank god. Conclusion, stick to only one or two topics. (But I just had a Mamee Mee) Er the lighting is pretty bad in this but I think it's my sucky webcam. (I really wanna eat T_T) So enjoy...I hope.
GAH!!! IDIOT it's CHOLERIC NOT CHORELIC!!!!!
PS Gah I'm depressed tgwtg.com has been down for ages T_T
PSS Btw http://www.fighunter.com/?page=temperaments This is the site I was talking about in my vlog if anyone is interested.
GAH!!! IDIOT it's CHOLERIC NOT CHORELIC!!!!!
PS Gah I'm depressed tgwtg.com has been down for ages T_T
PSS Btw http://www.fighunter.com/?page=temperaments This is the site I was talking about in my vlog if anyone is interested.
Monday, December 12, 2011
First Vlog
Hey guys I wanted to try my first vlog. If you don't know what that is it's a video blog. I haven't updated in ages and I wanted to give you the feel. So if you watch it please let me know what you think. Whether I should continue with that style or go back...Erm I think I elaborated on it in my vid. Er the link is unlisted so pls don't start sharing out my vid. I didn't really 'pang leng leng' for this vid. Just how you'd see me on Skype. I think I watched the Nostalgia Chick too much cause I seem to be channeling her (with a British Accent). GAH!!! I dunno why my british accent always pops up when I'm recording myself. >< Haha ok I'm getting a bit of course. So just enjoy the video and tell me what you think.
Yea it's a little long. xD opps. Yea realize my expressions are all over the place. :) Ciaoz
Yea it's a little long. xD opps. Yea realize my expressions are all over the place. :) Ciaoz
Tuesday, November 08, 2011
I didn't even know why I started thinking of it. It was over so long ago but it appeared in my head, that one question... What was the nicest thing I remember you doing for me? When I thought of the answer, it opened up a whole wave of emotions I locked up. No, not about you. I am already long over you. I think that is for the better. No but it reminded me of the time when you did that nice thing. I think I locked up memories of that time. I always try to forget everything or maybe I just have a bad memory. XD :( But I guess even I have to admit it is probably in the running for worst period of my life.
I don't know which feels worst, the fact I never expected anyone to care for my feelings like you did or the fact that I kinda hoped that there would be more... Nah I'm being selfish... Why would anyone care about little old me? I tried not to think about it then. Who was on my side? Who supported me? I can only name one person with complete sureness. Why? No, no the question is why am I disappointed? I expected this. For months I braced myself for the same conclusion...so why do I feel so betrayed? Am I selfish?
Nah this was a very long time ago... I should be putting this all behind me. Erase the song 'Girl Next Door' from my phone and carry on. I have the Tea Party right now. I'm happier now. I know they'd stand by me no matter what.
"LIAR!!!"
(looks away) Yea...Alucia's right...I'm lying to myself. Put them in the same situation...I'd be left on my own again. It's not their fault believe me...but is it really mine? Why am I so worthless? It's not like I'm unhappy with the outcome but...these were the people I called my friends...I don't...
Haiz...I dunno what else to say... It's just bad memories coming back to haunt me but... I really tried to forget it, honest I did. Just sometimes, something reminds me of it...and things just go bad. Haiz and I was in a good mood too. Oh wellz I dun have much else to say...Just let me go ponder life for a while. :(
Nightz
I don't know which feels worst, the fact I never expected anyone to care for my feelings like you did or the fact that I kinda hoped that there would be more... Nah I'm being selfish... Why would anyone care about little old me? I tried not to think about it then. Who was on my side? Who supported me? I can only name one person with complete sureness. Why? No, no the question is why am I disappointed? I expected this. For months I braced myself for the same conclusion...so why do I feel so betrayed? Am I selfish?
Nah this was a very long time ago... I should be putting this all behind me. Erase the song 'Girl Next Door' from my phone and carry on. I have the Tea Party right now. I'm happier now. I know they'd stand by me no matter what.
"LIAR!!!"
(looks away) Yea...Alucia's right...I'm lying to myself. Put them in the same situation...I'd be left on my own again. It's not their fault believe me...but is it really mine? Why am I so worthless? It's not like I'm unhappy with the outcome but...these were the people I called my friends...I don't...
Haiz...I dunno what else to say... It's just bad memories coming back to haunt me but... I really tried to forget it, honest I did. Just sometimes, something reminds me of it...and things just go bad. Haiz and I was in a good mood too. Oh wellz I dun have much else to say...Just let me go ponder life for a while. :(
Nightz
Saturday, November 05, 2011
Konbanwa!
こんばんわ。わたしはシャーメインです。どおぞよろしく。わたしはマルシアじんです。はじめまして。これわわたしのブロッグです。ようこそ。
And that is the extent of the Japanese I know. Haha no don't look at me like that. Not the writing, that's just the Mac. I just type 'ko' and this appears こ. But I've gotten the Hiragana pretty down. I still have to check every once in awhile but I think I'm pretty proud of myself. XD Don't ask me about katakana though (the one I wrote my name in). I HATE it so much. They generally look more chinesey and I remember how to write 'ko' by neh that box that looks like mouth in chinese but one side is open (コ). Yea... unfortunately ro is a 'kou' (mouth) ロ.
Okok I know you all are looking at me funny. I can't speak chinese to save my life and I want to learn Japanese? Yea well...I kinda prefer Japanese. I mean anime is one thing but also Japanese has a very straightforward pronunciation. If 'a' is pronounced like this, it's always pronounced like this. Like malay. In terms of writing...ok I think it is kinda silly to have 3 different types of writing. I understand why but I'm sorry. It's pretty hard for an outsider to learn. Ok y I prefer hiragana to chinese characters is this, there is no relation through characters. Where else Japanese is a bit more like English where a sound is a character. 'Ha'は for example or 'chi'ち, they will never change. So for example 'hachi' (eight) is written like はち. Y'know instead of ハ where you are just supposed to remember it's 'pak' (sry i dunno how to write hanyin pinyin). So yea, I'm probably confusing you. But anyway, this brings me to my next problem...KANJI!!! We all know Japanese originated from Chinese and all that right so of course they have to use their words as well.... Just as I was complaining about it... >_> I mean hiragana can take up alot of space so to shorten it they use kanji. So ハ、instead of はち。T_T So basically I still kinda have to learn chinese...not modern chinese mind you...traditional chinese. T_T
But I did say I was gonna learn as much Japanese as I can for the rest of my holidays. Grammar is pretty straight forward but i'm still a little confused between kore and kono...and a couple other things. I'm so glad I have Aisyah to bug whenever I need help/answers. xD And of course somebody to practice Japanese with. So wish me luck. Who knows? If I actually learn Japanese enough I might actually learn Chinese to improve my kanji. Haha Oh well
オやすみなさい、みんあさん。
Wednesday, October 12, 2011
When I first watched Son of the Mask, I felt a strange attraction to Loki.
When I first watched Spy Kids, Floop intrigued me more than the main characters.
I have rewatched both movies and they are very very meh movies but I have finally figured what the hell was up with those two characters. Alan Cumming (haha another Alan) Damnit, like so many actors I like, he is majorly underrated and underused. The thing that surprises me though is he is not conventionally handsome/hot but see him act once and see the sex ooze off that screen. I dare you to say he's not hot after. It's like you have to watch him cast a spell over you first.
Other than the above two incidents, I have never heard, nor cared for Alan before. A couple months ago, I heard about Broadway Backwards which basically switches around male and female roles in musical numbers. I first watched Neil Patrick Harris sing Take Me or Leave Me with his boyfriend. So anyway, I youtubed songs and found Don't Tell Mama. I was like ok don't know this song but I've vaguely heard the name Alan Cumming before. Oh he's the guy who played Nightcrawler, this should be good.
Damnit... Sex Appeal. *_* You don't see much of it from men. I mean the closest we probably get is Taylor Lautner tearing off his shirt and stare at Bella...Yea real manly... And damn those leather pants. Those were just (drool). Haha Ok I don't know how to explain it. Doh! Of course, like Adam Lambert, they just sell sex. I mean how many so-called hot celebrities do that. Justin Bieber...yikes... Not dissing him but no sex appeal at all.
Ok I know people are going to go out of the way to call me perverted on this but COME ON. Sex appeal is like a MUST for all female celebrities now. I just demand the opposite once in a while. Ok lemme just throw a few out from the top of my head, Bruno Mars, no; that transformers dude, hell no; hugh jackman... ok now Hugh Jackman does have sex appeal but... that's not really what I meant... He's Megan Fox, he's hot and sexual yes but he's no... oh I dunno... Jennifer Lopez. Maybe it's cause they're actors whereelse singers/dancers have to perform more. Dunno maybe that's the whole Korean singer craze, maybe they sell sex I dunno. All I see on tv are boy bands so yea...
Ooo getting way off topic. Well other than just projecting to the world I'm perverted, what else can I say? Men should wear eyeliner. Haha Ok this is more individual by individual basis but I haven't seen anyone who looks bad in eyeliner. I know there's a general consensus that guyliner=gay but I dunno...it just looks good. Gargh! I know I'm being nitpicky here but goddamnit! If you are gonna perform singlet/sleeveless/shirtless, shave your goddamn armpits. Gargh, I'm sorry...I'm not one of those weird people who are over nitpicky about hair or anything. I mean they are not major turn-offs or anything but damnit! Is it so hard to shave? I mean can you imagine Taylor Swift in a brilliant gown singing and then she raises her arms and gargh! This is not for normal people I don't expect much but you are on a stage, playing an over-sexualized man. SHAVE YOUR ARMPITS!!!
Haha ok this post is getting a bit out of hand. Haha sorry I'm sleepy but I'm waiting for the video of a critic making fun of If I die Young to load. Haha ok it's not a bad song, but I wanna see if he has the same problems with it that I did.
Oh wee, Robert Pattinson just came onscreen. X/ Another guy who probably doesn't shave. X/ What's up with that hair? Did he like forget to comb his hair in the morning or something? I'm trying to find his accent sexy but meh... It's just...meh. Haha sorry. After watching Alan, finding this person hot/sexy is much harder than usual. Haha ok I should go. I'm so proud of myself, I used Justin and Taylor Swift in my blog as examples and I never made fun of them, those talentless pieces of shit. XD
Ok listen, I have no problem with these two people, not personally but it's like Twillight for me. So many things just make me hate it that hasn't factored in the actual show/people. Ok I want to ask you something first, do you like any celebrity who isn't famous? Just think of one person, any person. And I mean really like them, not just a passing fancy. Are they more talented than the two people listed above? Chances are, they are. >_> Okok no more low blows. What does it feel that these people you like that are more talented than the above people are not even making half of what they get (or even worse). Ok let's just say music is subjective, fine. What about actors? From the back of my head I can name so many actors who are more talented than the girl who plays Bella Swan. So why is she making so much money again? It's irritating and sometimes it makes me so angry. (And I can't stand hypocrites, Robert Pattinson is fair target if they don't like him as well but if it's Justin who they like, I'm being mean. >_>)
Haha ok I should really stop around here. Two long posts on the same day. This is going to keep me from posting for a long time. KK then Nightz
PS: I don't see what's the big deal about Nasi Lemak 2.0. It's just a normal movie. Yea maybe it's better than most Malaysian shows but that is not saying much. The only thing I can say for it is it doesn't try to go for the whole racial stereotype that Singaporean shows are so fond of. (No they are not being racist, all races kena equal teruk but it's...old humour. You don't see (good) Hollywood movies making fun of black stereotypes anymore do they? {I like the random black dude though. You don't see enough of that in Asian shows}
When I first watched Spy Kids, Floop intrigued me more than the main characters.
I have rewatched both movies and they are very very meh movies but I have finally figured what the hell was up with those two characters. Alan Cumming (haha another Alan) Damnit, like so many actors I like, he is majorly underrated and underused. The thing that surprises me though is he is not conventionally handsome/hot but see him act once and see the sex ooze off that screen. I dare you to say he's not hot after. It's like you have to watch him cast a spell over you first.
Other than the above two incidents, I have never heard, nor cared for Alan before. A couple months ago, I heard about Broadway Backwards which basically switches around male and female roles in musical numbers. I first watched Neil Patrick Harris sing Take Me or Leave Me with his boyfriend. So anyway, I youtubed songs and found Don't Tell Mama. I was like ok don't know this song but I've vaguely heard the name Alan Cumming before. Oh he's the guy who played Nightcrawler, this should be good.
Damnit... Sex Appeal. *_* You don't see much of it from men. I mean the closest we probably get is Taylor Lautner tearing off his shirt and stare at Bella...Yea real manly... And damn those leather pants. Those were just (drool). Haha Ok I don't know how to explain it. Doh! Of course, like Adam Lambert, they just sell sex. I mean how many so-called hot celebrities do that. Justin Bieber...yikes... Not dissing him but no sex appeal at all.
Ok I know people are going to go out of the way to call me perverted on this but COME ON. Sex appeal is like a MUST for all female celebrities now. I just demand the opposite once in a while. Ok lemme just throw a few out from the top of my head, Bruno Mars, no; that transformers dude, hell no; hugh jackman... ok now Hugh Jackman does have sex appeal but... that's not really what I meant... He's Megan Fox, he's hot and sexual yes but he's no... oh I dunno... Jennifer Lopez. Maybe it's cause they're actors whereelse singers/dancers have to perform more. Dunno maybe that's the whole Korean singer craze, maybe they sell sex I dunno. All I see on tv are boy bands so yea...
Ooo getting way off topic. Well other than just projecting to the world I'm perverted, what else can I say? Men should wear eyeliner. Haha Ok this is more individual by individual basis but I haven't seen anyone who looks bad in eyeliner. I know there's a general consensus that guyliner=gay but I dunno...it just looks good. Gargh! I know I'm being nitpicky here but goddamnit! If you are gonna perform singlet/sleeveless/shirtless, shave your goddamn armpits. Gargh, I'm sorry...I'm not one of those weird people who are over nitpicky about hair or anything. I mean they are not major turn-offs or anything but damnit! Is it so hard to shave? I mean can you imagine Taylor Swift in a brilliant gown singing and then she raises her arms and gargh! This is not for normal people I don't expect much but you are on a stage, playing an over-sexualized man. SHAVE YOUR ARMPITS!!!
Haha ok this post is getting a bit out of hand. Haha sorry I'm sleepy but I'm waiting for the video of a critic making fun of If I die Young to load. Haha ok it's not a bad song, but I wanna see if he has the same problems with it that I did.
Oh wee, Robert Pattinson just came onscreen. X/ Another guy who probably doesn't shave. X/ What's up with that hair? Did he like forget to comb his hair in the morning or something? I'm trying to find his accent sexy but meh... It's just...meh. Haha sorry. After watching Alan, finding this person hot/sexy is much harder than usual. Haha ok I should go. I'm so proud of myself, I used Justin and Taylor Swift in my blog as examples and I never made fun of them, those talentless pieces of shit. XD
Ok listen, I have no problem with these two people, not personally but it's like Twillight for me. So many things just make me hate it that hasn't factored in the actual show/people. Ok I want to ask you something first, do you like any celebrity who isn't famous? Just think of one person, any person. And I mean really like them, not just a passing fancy. Are they more talented than the two people listed above? Chances are, they are. >_> Okok no more low blows. What does it feel that these people you like that are more talented than the above people are not even making half of what they get (or even worse). Ok let's just say music is subjective, fine. What about actors? From the back of my head I can name so many actors who are more talented than the girl who plays Bella Swan. So why is she making so much money again? It's irritating and sometimes it makes me so angry. (And I can't stand hypocrites, Robert Pattinson is fair target if they don't like him as well but if it's Justin who they like, I'm being mean. >_>)
Haha ok I should really stop around here. Two long posts on the same day. This is going to keep me from posting for a long time. KK then Nightz
PS: I don't see what's the big deal about Nasi Lemak 2.0. It's just a normal movie. Yea maybe it's better than most Malaysian shows but that is not saying much. The only thing I can say for it is it doesn't try to go for the whole racial stereotype that Singaporean shows are so fond of. (No they are not being racist, all races kena equal teruk but it's...old humour. You don't see (good) Hollywood movies making fun of black stereotypes anymore do they? {I like the random black dude though. You don't see enough of that in Asian shows}
Tuesday, October 11, 2011
Hey y'all! Decided to update again even though I have nothing to write about. Haha I think these spontaneous writing works better... Whenever I feel like posting something, I arrange everything perfectly in my head and then I don't feel like writing anything after. Haha yea I've said this before. Don't want the people memorizing my blog to hold it against me. XD
Well let's see...just revisited Pottermore...It kinda sucks... I know it's like the beta version so we just have to wait until the next book comes out. The best things about it are the wand and sorting test (yea, u know i love these kinda things) and all the extra info JK puts about the book and characters. But that's about it, the so-called interactive online experience is not there. I'm not gonna put a review here and feedback I'll probably just comment on the site straight. It's free so I don't expect much but still after all the hype... BUT DAMNIT all that backstory for Proffesor Mc Gonagall is just AWESOME so yea that is worth the whole experience.
Hmn... what else..? Haha I am IN LOVE with the That Guy with the Glasses. Haha not literally but just he is awesome. I LOVE watching all his reviews. It's funny, entertaining and sarcastic. Most of the shows he reviews are shows when I was a kid or younger so the nostalgia value sure plays in. The rest of the group ain't half bad either but I still enjoy watching him the most, mainly as the Nostalgia Critic but hearing him review as himself ain't half bad either. The other guy, Pan? Pam? well something like that, only reviews musicals so yea, totally for me. He likes Repo as well!!! XD Haha and he reintroduced me to Nightmare Before Christmas. I think it's really scary though how easily it is for these reviewers to convince you how good or bad a show is...or maybe I'm impressionable... Haha anyway if you haven't heard of them, check it out. They are awesome.
Argh! This guy on tv is so irritating. If he show's the peace sign one more time...
Gargh! NEVER watching Final Destination again. I mean it's not scary or anything but I can get really paranoid and FD does not help! I had to mow the lawn (FD 4), try some weird electrocution health thingy (and the lady just had to leave the room). Yea can't think of more but I'm generally more paranoid than usual. I have already decided not to try (thanks to the FDs) tanning beds (meh, asians has a weird thought that the whiter the better so meh), eye laser surgery (ok i know what happened in the show is pretty impossible but even the 'standard procedure' just seemed so uncomfortable {shivers}) and acupuncture (ok that might have something to do with the needles but meh, still not doing it)
I am convinced this guy on tv is gay...........
Hmn... y'know what? I think I should stop doing promoter job and try an assortment of things. I'm actually excited for my next job and not so jaded and lazy as usual. Mwahahahaha That reminds me I should start reading up on Microsoft Excel... Haha Stupid Mac doesn't have Excel program... Meh...maybe tomorrow... Or I should just tell my mom my bros aren't studying. That would give me the computer for sure. Mwahahahahahahaha
Klar. Can't think of anything to write. Byez
Well let's see...just revisited Pottermore...It kinda sucks... I know it's like the beta version so we just have to wait until the next book comes out. The best things about it are the wand and sorting test (yea, u know i love these kinda things) and all the extra info JK puts about the book and characters. But that's about it, the so-called interactive online experience is not there. I'm not gonna put a review here and feedback I'll probably just comment on the site straight. It's free so I don't expect much but still after all the hype... BUT DAMNIT all that backstory for Proffesor Mc Gonagall is just AWESOME so yea that is worth the whole experience.
Hmn... what else..? Haha I am IN LOVE with the That Guy with the Glasses. Haha not literally but just he is awesome. I LOVE watching all his reviews. It's funny, entertaining and sarcastic. Most of the shows he reviews are shows when I was a kid or younger so the nostalgia value sure plays in. The rest of the group ain't half bad either but I still enjoy watching him the most, mainly as the Nostalgia Critic but hearing him review as himself ain't half bad either. The other guy, Pan? Pam? well something like that, only reviews musicals so yea, totally for me. He likes Repo as well!!! XD Haha and he reintroduced me to Nightmare Before Christmas. I think it's really scary though how easily it is for these reviewers to convince you how good or bad a show is...or maybe I'm impressionable... Haha anyway if you haven't heard of them, check it out. They are awesome.
Argh! This guy on tv is so irritating. If he show's the peace sign one more time...
Gargh! NEVER watching Final Destination again. I mean it's not scary or anything but I can get really paranoid and FD does not help! I had to mow the lawn (FD 4), try some weird electrocution health thingy (and the lady just had to leave the room). Yea can't think of more but I'm generally more paranoid than usual. I have already decided not to try (thanks to the FDs) tanning beds (meh, asians has a weird thought that the whiter the better so meh), eye laser surgery (ok i know what happened in the show is pretty impossible but even the 'standard procedure' just seemed so uncomfortable {shivers}) and acupuncture (ok that might have something to do with the needles but meh, still not doing it)
I am convinced this guy on tv is gay...........
Hmn... y'know what? I think I should stop doing promoter job and try an assortment of things. I'm actually excited for my next job and not so jaded and lazy as usual. Mwahahahaha That reminds me I should start reading up on Microsoft Excel... Haha Stupid Mac doesn't have Excel program... Meh...maybe tomorrow... Or I should just tell my mom my bros aren't studying. That would give me the computer for sure. Mwahahahahahahaha
Klar. Can't think of anything to write. Byez
Sunday, October 02, 2011
Too sleepy to update but if I don't update then I won't post anything. Decisions, Decisions...
Karma's a real bitch. But is it called Karma if you are punished before you commit the crime?
What happens when I'm bored with nothing but a labeller to entertain me? I decorate my pants with Repo! characters. Haha I'm bored, sue me.
Just when I think a year younger is a alright to date, someone has to prove me wrong...
Why is it the people telling me off for being too lazy to work are people who has never tried working... There's only one person I allow to rag me on not working and she works everyday...
Haha ok I know I summarized everything. I'm too sleepy to type anything in full...
Haiz in the end, as Yi min says...I'd probably end up working in a months time... Is there away I can record the suffering to remind myself NEVER AGAIN the next time.
Karma's a real bitch. But is it called Karma if you are punished before you commit the crime?
What happens when I'm bored with nothing but a labeller to entertain me? I decorate my pants with Repo! characters. Haha I'm bored, sue me.
Just when I think a year younger is a alright to date, someone has to prove me wrong...
Why is it the people telling me off for being too lazy to work are people who has never tried working... There's only one person I allow to rag me on not working and she works everyday...
Haha ok I know I summarized everything. I'm too sleepy to type anything in full...
Haiz in the end, as Yi min says...I'd probably end up working in a months time... Is there away I can record the suffering to remind myself NEVER AGAIN the next time.
Saturday, October 01, 2011
Ok haven't had time to update much this week. Err if I have the mood I'll tell y'all what's been going on. I don't have much time really to say much so just a quick update... Let's see...
Alright again someone beat me to the punch on writing about farewells. Damn them!... Haha not really... Actually am pretty relieved when someone does put those up so I don't feel obliged to writing one myself. I'm not really much of a feelly person. I rant... I don't write sappy things as most people who received letters from me can attest. I write emo stories but they're not my feelings. The closest I can write about my feelings are here in my blog and it's gotten pretty emotionless over the years. I'm not so much of a public person either. I really never noticed how secretive I can be until recently. (Blame horoscopes) But yea, don't really like broadcasting myself to the world. Again, this blog is about as open as it gets. Maybe it's cause I don't really treat it like telling people what's going on but really like a diary. A place to express myself. So yea, if you want emotional stuff go to Shu Whey's blog. That's her territory, not mine.
On a side note, I GOT MY FIRST REVIEW. Haha I'm overinvesting in this story man. Haha I know, 5th time I brought up my story. Haha I'll send ya a link if u wan, but I doubt it ;) Wasn't so worried really what people think of my stories but the actual fandom...well, ALOT. Haha sorry I was just terrified that Luigi is out of character and Pavi's a real bitch to write. So having the review say that they all seemed very in character was just a real pleasure. :) Haha
Haha ok so the best thing about this is I don't know her (ok I've seen her on Repo Boards but that's about it.) So she isn't obliged to tell me my story is good. (Believe me, if people had just told me straight that some of my stories really sucked it would have helped alot). So yea, it means ALOT to me. Here I am sitting in Popeye's for the third time this week and nearly squeeling my head off. So yea, thanks StiffKitty? Haha
Ok breaks nearly over. Really got to go. Ciaoz
Alright again someone beat me to the punch on writing about farewells. Damn them!... Haha not really... Actually am pretty relieved when someone does put those up so I don't feel obliged to writing one myself. I'm not really much of a feelly person. I rant... I don't write sappy things as most people who received letters from me can attest. I write emo stories but they're not my feelings. The closest I can write about my feelings are here in my blog and it's gotten pretty emotionless over the years. I'm not so much of a public person either. I really never noticed how secretive I can be until recently. (Blame horoscopes) But yea, don't really like broadcasting myself to the world. Again, this blog is about as open as it gets. Maybe it's cause I don't really treat it like telling people what's going on but really like a diary. A place to express myself. So yea, if you want emotional stuff go to Shu Whey's blog. That's her territory, not mine.
On a side note, I GOT MY FIRST REVIEW. Haha I'm overinvesting in this story man. Haha I know, 5th time I brought up my story. Haha I'll send ya a link if u wan, but I doubt it ;) Wasn't so worried really what people think of my stories but the actual fandom...well, ALOT. Haha sorry I was just terrified that Luigi is out of character and Pavi's a real bitch to write. So having the review say that they all seemed very in character was just a real pleasure. :) Haha
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Haha ok so the best thing about this is I don't know her (ok I've seen her on Repo Boards but that's about it.) So she isn't obliged to tell me my story is good. (Believe me, if people had just told me straight that some of my stories really sucked it would have helped alot). So yea, it means ALOT to me. Here I am sitting in Popeye's for the third time this week and nearly squeeling my head off. So yea, thanks StiffKitty? Haha
Ok breaks nearly over. Really got to go. Ciaoz
Thursday, September 22, 2011
Repo! the Genetic Opera
Alright I'm doing it. I'm blogging about Repo!. Ok so I'm really bored but there are just some people I have to convince to watch (who are probably gonna skim or not read this post anyway :(. And btw, any of you who watch d Saw series (or Repo) and have Twitter, PLEASE, I repeat PLEASE follow Darren Bousman on twitter. The guy is hiding something from us and is not telling us what until he get more followers :( He's a tease...
Ok so what should I start with... The songs I guess...Ok regardless of what I have said about 17, there isn't a single song on Repo! I hate. Bored, maybe but not hate. I used to dislike Chromaggia but damn, Sarah Brightman is talented. Ok at first I wanted to list all the songs in order but DAMN there's ALOT of songs. 22 total just on the soundtrack so yea...maybe not... Ok so I'll just list songs that stood out in (maybe?) a particular order. (this is going to end up all the songs, I know it >_>)
1) At the Opera Tonight - Ok who can not love this song. The song is just...EPIC. It has the whole cast singing (and it's d closest thing to a duet between Anthony and Sarah). Anyone who watches musicals/operas would know this as the song before the storm and damnit I think the only musical who can beat Repo in terms of epicness is One Day More from Les Miserables. (Believe me, I've recorded myself singing all the parts (Repo Man gave me a sore throat) IT'S EPIC!!!
2) Mark it Up - Ok you knew I'd put this here. In Terrance's words, it's essentially the introduction to the Largo children and if any of you have been to my Tumblr, you'd know the Largo brothers are my favorite characters. So yea, anyone who knows me know I never go for the comic relief but when the comic relief is a murderer and a rapist...well I guess there's something appealing about it. More about this when I talk about the characters later :D (you knew I would). So anyway, there's just something so over-the-top and funny about this scene that keeps me coming back for more.
3) Night Surgeon - Another song that is just plain epicness. Like Thankless Job, there's just something so disturbing and yet fun about people singing as they kill people. (Sweeney Todd was more detached, he wasn't enjoying the kill) Nathan was and Luigi looked like Christmas had come early. AND (haha you knew this was coming) it was the only time in the movie the Largos looked like they were having fun with each other. I am bloody serious. I mean besides the time they are pretending in front of a crowd, have you ever seen the Largos so civil with each other? Half the time, Rotti acts like he wishes he never had kids so yea, super refreshing.
4) Zydrate Anatomy - Ok this song wins major points for just being so bloody catchy. It was the first song I really liked and it was stuck in my head for ages. It's like a nursery rhyme. I mean seriously drugs have never sounded cooler. I wish I could say Paris' entrance spoiled the song but it didn't. Everything worked perfectly, even the surgery montage (and lesbian Genterns? xD jk (i think.)).
Ok I think I'm really going through all the songs now... haha Sorry... but the music is just that awesome. There isn't a single one I want to leave out.
5) We Started This Opera Shit - Ok I really love this song but it faded over time because it's sung mostly by the chorus so no major characters appear (and GOD did the Single Mother really have to strip? I mean seriously, no nudity throughout the show and suddenly BOOBS X/ I mean I don't really have such a big issue with it but why??? T_T) Ok that's over and done with, now why this song rocks. It's pretty much the Repo Army (Repo fans) theme song. TESTIFY has been our 'motto' and I dunno... it presents some pretty good reasons why GeneCo is not really a bad idea. (Ok let me clarify, I'm pro-GeneCo but anti-Rotti but more about that under characters :))
6) Genterns - Oh dear Genterns...Sigh...it's not even an official song and it 'introduces' us more to the Largo children. I have no idea are we supposed to find the kidz more despicable or likable but damnit they do really well as comic relief. The song is less than a minute? and yet it's catchy, likable and I can play it on repeat, repeatedly.
7) 21st Century Cure - Ok I like this song because of the meaning and how true it is even now. I mean esp with all the plastic surgery going on now Graves poses the question, "Would you change who you are if you could?" I mean seriously who has never considered this question before? "Your designer heart still beats with common blood". These are the things that draw me to this song. But seriously, you wanna enjoy this song. Listen to it, don't watch it. The graves, Shilo, GeneCops, all too distracting. Takes away from the song. Just listen to the meaning as it is.
Ok I think that's about it, it's not that that's all the songs that's good but I think that's all I wanna talk about... Hmn... I love the duets but there's nothing exclusive really to say about it. Chase the Morning/Everyone's a Composer/Come Back is just awesome if not epic. And I dare you to classify the genre of music that song is. I can't figure it out. It's songs like this that makes me wish I can sing three lines at the same time.
Infected and Legal Assassin are just perfect songs to sing along to. I esp love the last verse of Legal Assassin where I can go all crazy like. Haha I just love to karaoke to myself and these two songs are perfect to do so. Hmn... special mentions to Bravi which is also my ringtone and NO MATTER where I am, whenever my phone rings, people stare. I mean really stare, and I'm cursing in my mind trying to answer the phone as quickly as I can. :S
Oooo I think that's it... I just realized the Largos need more songs :S Haha I like Gold but damnit the guy who sang it for the stage play is just....i love his voice. I mean there was nothing special about it but damn! I just like the voice... Think that's weird? I'm also in love with the Italian language because someone (Pavi probably) sang that one line in Come to the Opera with Me in Italian and i think it just sounds lovely. Yea...I'm beyond obsessed.
Haha alright then...this post is getting long and I'm a bit sleepy so err I'll leave this post about songs and continue about characters next time. Haha please don't take this as an excuse to run from my blog. Instead WATCH REPO! and understand why I'm just so crazy. Goodnight everyone. :)
TESTIFY!!!!!!
Ok so what should I start with... The songs I guess...Ok regardless of what I have said about 17, there isn't a single song on Repo! I hate. Bored, maybe but not hate. I used to dislike Chromaggia but damn, Sarah Brightman is talented. Ok at first I wanted to list all the songs in order but DAMN there's ALOT of songs. 22 total just on the soundtrack so yea...maybe not... Ok so I'll just list songs that stood out in (maybe?) a particular order. (this is going to end up all the songs, I know it >_>)
1) At the Opera Tonight - Ok who can not love this song. The song is just...EPIC. It has the whole cast singing (and it's d closest thing to a duet between Anthony and Sarah). Anyone who watches musicals/operas would know this as the song before the storm and damnit I think the only musical who can beat Repo in terms of epicness is One Day More from Les Miserables. (Believe me, I've recorded myself singing all the parts (Repo Man gave me a sore throat) IT'S EPIC!!!
2) Mark it Up - Ok you knew I'd put this here. In Terrance's words, it's essentially the introduction to the Largo children and if any of you have been to my Tumblr, you'd know the Largo brothers are my favorite characters. So yea, anyone who knows me know I never go for the comic relief but when the comic relief is a murderer and a rapist...well I guess there's something appealing about it. More about this when I talk about the characters later :D (you knew I would). So anyway, there's just something so over-the-top and funny about this scene that keeps me coming back for more.
3) Night Surgeon - Another song that is just plain epicness. Like Thankless Job, there's just something so disturbing and yet fun about people singing as they kill people. (Sweeney Todd was more detached, he wasn't enjoying the kill) Nathan was and Luigi looked like Christmas had come early. AND (haha you knew this was coming) it was the only time in the movie the Largos looked like they were having fun with each other. I am bloody serious. I mean besides the time they are pretending in front of a crowd, have you ever seen the Largos so civil with each other? Half the time, Rotti acts like he wishes he never had kids so yea, super refreshing.
4) Zydrate Anatomy - Ok this song wins major points for just being so bloody catchy. It was the first song I really liked and it was stuck in my head for ages. It's like a nursery rhyme. I mean seriously drugs have never sounded cooler. I wish I could say Paris' entrance spoiled the song but it didn't. Everything worked perfectly, even the surgery montage (and lesbian Genterns? xD jk (i think.)).
Ok I think I'm really going through all the songs now... haha Sorry... but the music is just that awesome. There isn't a single one I want to leave out.
5) We Started This Opera Shit - Ok I really love this song but it faded over time because it's sung mostly by the chorus so no major characters appear (and GOD did the Single Mother really have to strip? I mean seriously, no nudity throughout the show and suddenly BOOBS X/ I mean I don't really have such a big issue with it but why??? T_T) Ok that's over and done with, now why this song rocks. It's pretty much the Repo Army (Repo fans) theme song. TESTIFY has been our 'motto' and I dunno... it presents some pretty good reasons why GeneCo is not really a bad idea. (Ok let me clarify, I'm pro-GeneCo but anti-Rotti but more about that under characters :))
6) Genterns - Oh dear Genterns...Sigh...it's not even an official song and it 'introduces' us more to the Largo children. I have no idea are we supposed to find the kidz more despicable or likable but damnit they do really well as comic relief. The song is less than a minute? and yet it's catchy, likable and I can play it on repeat, repeatedly.
7) 21st Century Cure - Ok I like this song because of the meaning and how true it is even now. I mean esp with all the plastic surgery going on now Graves poses the question, "Would you change who you are if you could?" I mean seriously who has never considered this question before? "Your designer heart still beats with common blood". These are the things that draw me to this song. But seriously, you wanna enjoy this song. Listen to it, don't watch it. The graves, Shilo, GeneCops, all too distracting. Takes away from the song. Just listen to the meaning as it is.
Ok I think that's about it, it's not that that's all the songs that's good but I think that's all I wanna talk about... Hmn... I love the duets but there's nothing exclusive really to say about it. Chase the Morning/Everyone's a Composer/Come Back is just awesome if not epic. And I dare you to classify the genre of music that song is. I can't figure it out. It's songs like this that makes me wish I can sing three lines at the same time.
Infected and Legal Assassin are just perfect songs to sing along to. I esp love the last verse of Legal Assassin where I can go all crazy like. Haha I just love to karaoke to myself and these two songs are perfect to do so. Hmn... special mentions to Bravi which is also my ringtone and NO MATTER where I am, whenever my phone rings, people stare. I mean really stare, and I'm cursing in my mind trying to answer the phone as quickly as I can. :S
Oooo I think that's it... I just realized the Largos need more songs :S Haha I like Gold but damnit the guy who sang it for the stage play is just....i love his voice. I mean there was nothing special about it but damn! I just like the voice... Think that's weird? I'm also in love with the Italian language because someone (Pavi probably) sang that one line in Come to the Opera with Me in Italian and i think it just sounds lovely. Yea...I'm beyond obsessed.
Haha alright then...this post is getting long and I'm a bit sleepy so err I'll leave this post about songs and continue about characters next time. Haha please don't take this as an excuse to run from my blog. Instead WATCH REPO! and understand why I'm just so crazy. Goodnight everyone. :)
TESTIFY!!!!!!
Monday, September 19, 2011
Boredom leads to depression, I'm sure of it. My brain is rotting. I can't believe I'm jealous at some people for studying. STUDYING!!! (Bangs head repeatedly) Bored! (Bang) Bored! (Bang) BORED!!!!! (BANG) Oooo I think I need to sit down for a while. Yea just in case I didn't get the point across I"M BORED!!!!!! I'm looking forward to a goddamned blood test just to fill up my day. I"M BORED!!!!!!!!
So anyway what else is new in my life...Hmn... my computer died on me. It's depressing not having Luigi greet me everytime I go online. I'm so used to it I think I'm facing withdrawal. >< My dad doesn't want to repair my laptop so yea bye bye...Should NOT have gotten attached T_T Stupid second hand piece of shit!!!
I'm obsessed with watching Sims dies.
Oooo I finally got the courage to post the story. No reviews yet though :S Ok fine, it's only been a couple of hours but still.... REVIEWS (hint hint, hint hint) So yea that's the extent of my life. So if you haven't gotten the hint I"M BORED!!!!!!! I HAVE NO LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!! X/ I don't even have the patience to write the posts in full. I feel so jumpy here. BORED
Ooo yea have I mentioned I HATE NEEDLES!!! Unless they are those gigantic ones I use for crosstitch that aren't sharp at all, keep them AWAY from me!!! I'm not scared of them or anything but seriously, keep them AWAY. X/ So yea I calculated, soon I'm gonna get a blood test: needle; than in about 3 months I'm gonna go donate blood: NEEDLES; which would then give me free Hep B injections: needles; and daddy dearest wants me to take d cervical cancer injection: Needles. That's 10 needles in all (I hope). WTF? NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO
Yea ok that's all I'm posting. I'm BORED but too hyper? to post anything coherent. So erm...ciaoz i guess...
So anyway what else is new in my life...Hmn... my computer died on me. It's depressing not having Luigi greet me everytime I go online. I'm so used to it I think I'm facing withdrawal. >< My dad doesn't want to repair my laptop so yea bye bye...Should NOT have gotten attached T_T Stupid second hand piece of shit!!!
I'm obsessed with watching Sims dies.
Oooo I finally got the courage to post the story. No reviews yet though :S Ok fine, it's only been a couple of hours but still.... REVIEWS (hint hint, hint hint) So yea that's the extent of my life. So if you haven't gotten the hint I"M BORED!!!!!!! I HAVE NO LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!! X/ I don't even have the patience to write the posts in full. I feel so jumpy here. BORED
Ooo yea have I mentioned I HATE NEEDLES!!! Unless they are those gigantic ones I use for crosstitch that aren't sharp at all, keep them AWAY from me!!! I'm not scared of them or anything but seriously, keep them AWAY. X/ So yea I calculated, soon I'm gonna get a blood test: needle; than in about 3 months I'm gonna go donate blood: NEEDLES; which would then give me free Hep B injections: needles; and daddy dearest wants me to take d cervical cancer injection: Needles. That's 10 needles in all (I hope). WTF? NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO
Yea ok that's all I'm posting. I'm BORED but too hyper? to post anything coherent. So erm...ciaoz i guess...
Wednesday, September 07, 2011
ASH WITH UNICORN CORE, TEN AND THREE QUARTER INCHES, UNYIELDING
Unicorn hair generally produces the most consistent magic, and is least subject to fluctuations and blockages. Wands with unicorn cores are generally the most difficult to turn to the Dark Arts. They are the most faithful of all wands, and usually remain strongly attached to their first owner, irrespective of whether he or she was an accomplished witch or wizard.
Minor disadvantages of unicorn hair are that they do not make the most powerful wands (although the wand wood may compensate) and that they are prone to melancholy if seriously mishandled, meaning that the hair may 'die' and need replacing.
Funny, whenever I used to play pretend I always chose the Unicorn Core as well. :) Well the words I bolded stood out to me the most and I can't help but agree. I never really thought of being powerful in anyway but being consistent was important. Well, for melancholy, you only need to read my blog to get it and faithful well...hahaha
Unyielding, sounds fair enough like me. I was always told I was too stubborn. Haha oops ok they meant flexibility. Well I am unflexible as anything, believe me. I'm like a tree. Haha so yea, that's me
10 & 3/4s sounds a little short... I couldn't figure if I was average or tall for my age...so I put average... I have to reread all the other character's wand length though to figure just how short it really is. (Haha just found out Draco's was 10 so I guess it's an average size wand. Haha)
The ash wand cleaves to its one true master and ought not to be passed on or gifted from the original owner, because it will lose power and skill. This tendency is extreme if the core is of unicorn. Old superstitions regarding wands rarely bear close examination, but I find that the old rhyme regarding rowan, chestnut, ash and hazel wands (rowan gossips, chestnut drones, ash is stubborn, hazel moans) contains a small nugget of truth. Those witches and wizards best suited to ash wands are not, in my experience, lightly swayed from their beliefs or purposes. However, the brash or over-confident witch or wizard, who often insists on trying wands of this prestigious wood, will be disappointed by its effects. The ideal owner may be stubborn, and will certainly be courageous, but never crass or arrogant.
Haha what did I say about being stubborn? Haha I don't know how such simple questions managed to be so accurat but they are. The wand seems to suit me from the beginning and I don't know...never believed in the passing down of wands etc. Haha now I really can't wait for the sorting
It seems I have Cedric Diggory's and Charlie Weasley's wand. Hahaha
Sunday, September 04, 2011
Hi guys,
I have honestly no idea what to post about so I guess I just wanted to post a little update about my life. :) I couldn't really think of a specific topic but I wanted to post a little something. Initially, I wanted to write something about a parting I experienced last Friday but after reading Pik Ee's blog, I won't be able to do any justice to it. I just hope her happiness in a foreign land. I have perfect confidence she will not be alone there as she can make friends with total ease. Even so, I am here on Facebook or Skype if she needs someone to talk to. :) God bless.
Has anyone else tried the new blogger website? I mean this website but they updated things. It's so...white and clean. The last one was pretty similar to my actual blog so writing emo posts came naturally. Now it feels like I should be writing happy posts. Yikes Not my style but I promise this will not be an emo post. Just an update of what's going on literally in my life. There's not much to say really, as nothing is going on but I've passed that emo phase of my last two posts. It had to happen I guess, I couldn't resent that one fact forever.
Hmn...I still haven't continued working. That chick from the telechatter never called me back or replied my sms, I won't lie by saying I'm disappointed. I addressed the reasons for that in my last post so yea, don't need to bring that up. And me stopping work, I guess I'm lazier than I thought. I don't really want to continue though, I've got the experience I wanted. I mean I could always get more but I mean I've gotten the feel of it. It's not a new thing so I don't really want more. But it seems like such a waste of time. I sleep at 6 every night and wake at 4/5. I mean I'm online I guess but it is a real waste. I told myself since I have 6 free months, I'd actually go out and audition for a musical at KL Pac. Guess whether I tried anything? Sigh... I guess that's just me. :( I ignore all my opportunities and then emo about. Even so, it's too late to do anything about it so yea...I'm giving up.
Ok what next...oh yea I finally finished my stupid Phantom of GeneCo story (temporary title). Haha THANK YOU EUNICE!!! Haha she gave me the ending I desired which worked perfectly for me. I wanted to write a multiple ending story at first because I knew none of the endings would satisfy me. But Eunice found one that worked. I knew I had to kill someone off and I thought the dad was a sure goner but when I decided to make the dad not so bad after all I knew he had to survive and 'suffer'. It worked perfectly and so thank you for giving me that idea. It was a slight pain to write but it was worth it. If I ever have the confidence, I'd post it. :) So again, thank you Eunice.
In relation to that, I wanted to thank Andrew (Henecran) for helping to write a summary for my old story so I have no excuse not to post it on FF.net, even though I don't think you read my blog. I hardly let, well I wouldn't say stranger exactly but I barely know him, read my stories so when he actually gave me rather positive feedback, it really brightened my day. (And as you can see, I linked his blog, check it out, he's a pretty good writer.) The story is my new baby so yea, I think I would have been heartbroken if I got negative feedback. Haha sorry, I love to write and I think the compliments I got have been blowing up my ego a bit. :( Even so, I know I'm far from good and I really am trying to improve. If Monash has creative writing class, I would be super happy. Haha so anyway, I want to work out all the kinks in the story before I post it so if anyone would be sweet enough to volunteer reading, it would be awesome. :)
Haha speaking of Monash, I GOT IN!!! Haha ok I got the news a couple of days back and I dunno...I wasn't as happy as I thought I would be... Perhaps I was cocky, so I thought no problem. :( Definitely have to get that out of my system. Maybe I was still in my emo phase when I got it... I was relieved no doubt, cause I really dun wanna go IMU but not actually happy... Perhaps it was cockiness...I just wonder, had I really expected the results I got, would I have checked the box for applying for Monash Clayton. I think until now, I regret not doing so. I don't know what that would have accomplish, I mean I could go around begging for scholarships but I don't know why I'm not doing so for local Monash anyway... I don't think it would have changed a thing but until now I still regret not checking that box. I have no idea how it'd mess my local Monash chances but I still...regret... But then again...perhaps the feeling of getting it but not being able to go may be worse. Perhaps that's why I'm kinda glad LSE rejected me. I mean that's probably the school to be. Hahaha so much for being over my emo phase. A bit hard to forget about it since everyone is talking about it. Maybe I'm just comparing with the wrong people. I always expected them to go anyway. I think I just expected more for myself...
Hahaha see? Back to emoness... Hahaha No no no Hmn... let's see what else is going on in my life? I'm obsessed with horoscopes. Haha I know I'm annoying people by constantly asking their horoscopes but it's fun. :) I mean in terms of personality, it's super accurate and yet the 2 people who says that the same fact applies to them seem different in every way. Haha freaky right? I mean I was writing a birthday letter for my friend that day and was looking up our horoscope compatibilities on ideas on things to write. Haha I love the way they described our 'friendship'. Haha especially how we'd always argue who's the most dominant among us. The description solved the argument perfectly for me. Haha maybe I should show her the site one day. But yea, am loving horoscopes and I'm not gonna stop checking them out. I just found something out... :( I am incompatible with every member of my immediate family. My mom's an aquarius, dad's a libra, one bro's an Aries and my other bro's a Scorpio (which is either super compatible or super incompatible) Maybe compatibility leans more to love but it's just...sad... It kinda explains alot though...Sigh
Yea that's about it I guess... Am still debating with myself whether I should do a little post on Repo. XD Yea, I know everyone's bored of my talking about it. I just realised I never did do a post about Repo though even if my tumblr's full of it. Maybe I should do a full post then? Haha Ok, I'll compromise, I'll write a bit of how Repo is affecting my life now, and if I'm in the mood I shall do a full Repo post. :) Ok let's see, currently I'm not watching Repo as often as I used to cause I think I replayed the songs one too many times. Shhh don't tell the Repo gang on Fb. Even so, I seem more obsessed with Repo than a couple of weeks ago. Maybe it's the FB group, who are a wonderful group of people who are like me, spending their lives waiting impatiently for a sequel. Maybe it's the stage musical which I am virtually unable to find any info about but I am crazy obsessed with their songs. (Chase the Morning is bloody uplifting but the verses are way too draggy) Or maybe it's cause I managed to convince Li Chin to watch and like it, so now I'm more confident in asking other people to watch it. Maybe it's just my fanfics that are pulling me back into that world. Even so, I hope my obsession with Repo will last. I have noticed my obsessions fading rather quickly now and that's just depressing. Even so, I'm getting rather disillusioned about getting a sequel though...and that just gets me down. I'm trying my best though to trend #RepoOpera and I hope you guys would do the same. While Repo would always be Terrance's baby, he has Molting now and I guess he is moving on. I got into Repo pretty late though...most real fans of the show has probably given up waiting. I guess this obsession will fade over time if no news of a sequel is coming out soon but I guess until I give up my obsession on Bill Moseley (and/or Nivek Ogre) I would always be excited for a Repo sequel. I think the speed I move through my obsessions really depress me though. I mean I know of people who hold their obsession for years. Then again, I look back at some of my obsessions and wonder what the hell was I thinking. (I used to be obsessed with a pokemon for heaven's sake) But right now, even just thinking about giving up Repo and Bill just depresses me. (Haha see, emo again) Haha it's official, I must make it a point to post about Repo. Haha
Well, I guess I should really end now. It's nice to know I have finally gotten my original writing style back (probably around the time I wrote the piece about Michael Jackson's death?) Haha Maybe cause this is literal mumblings and not much emoness in it (well less than usual) and all the brackets I'm using. Haha it feels familiar. I think with tumblr and facebook updates, there's really less to blog about. And yet, this post is filled with everything and yet nothing. Haha it's refreshing though. Well alright then, it's 5.40 in the morning, I really should get to bed. Goodnight everyone (or for the more hardworking of you, good morning). :) Nice chatting with you. :)
I have honestly no idea what to post about so I guess I just wanted to post a little update about my life. :) I couldn't really think of a specific topic but I wanted to post a little something. Initially, I wanted to write something about a parting I experienced last Friday but after reading Pik Ee's blog, I won't be able to do any justice to it. I just hope her happiness in a foreign land. I have perfect confidence she will not be alone there as she can make friends with total ease. Even so, I am here on Facebook or Skype if she needs someone to talk to. :) God bless.
Has anyone else tried the new blogger website? I mean this website but they updated things. It's so...white and clean. The last one was pretty similar to my actual blog so writing emo posts came naturally. Now it feels like I should be writing happy posts. Yikes Not my style but I promise this will not be an emo post. Just an update of what's going on literally in my life. There's not much to say really, as nothing is going on but I've passed that emo phase of my last two posts. It had to happen I guess, I couldn't resent that one fact forever.
Hmn...I still haven't continued working. That chick from the telechatter never called me back or replied my sms, I won't lie by saying I'm disappointed. I addressed the reasons for that in my last post so yea, don't need to bring that up. And me stopping work, I guess I'm lazier than I thought. I don't really want to continue though, I've got the experience I wanted. I mean I could always get more but I mean I've gotten the feel of it. It's not a new thing so I don't really want more. But it seems like such a waste of time. I sleep at 6 every night and wake at 4/5. I mean I'm online I guess but it is a real waste. I told myself since I have 6 free months, I'd actually go out and audition for a musical at KL Pac. Guess whether I tried anything? Sigh... I guess that's just me. :( I ignore all my opportunities and then emo about. Even so, it's too late to do anything about it so yea...I'm giving up.
Ok what next...oh yea I finally finished my stupid Phantom of GeneCo story (temporary title). Haha THANK YOU EUNICE!!! Haha she gave me the ending I desired which worked perfectly for me. I wanted to write a multiple ending story at first because I knew none of the endings would satisfy me. But Eunice found one that worked. I knew I had to kill someone off and I thought the dad was a sure goner but when I decided to make the dad not so bad after all I knew he had to survive and 'suffer'. It worked perfectly and so thank you for giving me that idea. It was a slight pain to write but it was worth it. If I ever have the confidence, I'd post it. :) So again, thank you Eunice.
In relation to that, I wanted to thank Andrew (Henecran) for helping to write a summary for my old story so I have no excuse not to post it on FF.net, even though I don't think you read my blog. I hardly let, well I wouldn't say stranger exactly but I barely know him, read my stories so when he actually gave me rather positive feedback, it really brightened my day. (And as you can see, I linked his blog, check it out, he's a pretty good writer.) The story is my new baby so yea, I think I would have been heartbroken if I got negative feedback. Haha sorry, I love to write and I think the compliments I got have been blowing up my ego a bit. :( Even so, I know I'm far from good and I really am trying to improve. If Monash has creative writing class, I would be super happy. Haha so anyway, I want to work out all the kinks in the story before I post it so if anyone would be sweet enough to volunteer reading, it would be awesome. :)
Haha speaking of Monash, I GOT IN!!! Haha ok I got the news a couple of days back and I dunno...I wasn't as happy as I thought I would be... Perhaps I was cocky, so I thought no problem. :( Definitely have to get that out of my system. Maybe I was still in my emo phase when I got it... I was relieved no doubt, cause I really dun wanna go IMU but not actually happy... Perhaps it was cockiness...I just wonder, had I really expected the results I got, would I have checked the box for applying for Monash Clayton. I think until now, I regret not doing so. I don't know what that would have accomplish, I mean I could go around begging for scholarships but I don't know why I'm not doing so for local Monash anyway... I don't think it would have changed a thing but until now I still regret not checking that box. I have no idea how it'd mess my local Monash chances but I still...regret... But then again...perhaps the feeling of getting it but not being able to go may be worse. Perhaps that's why I'm kinda glad LSE rejected me. I mean that's probably the school to be. Hahaha so much for being over my emo phase. A bit hard to forget about it since everyone is talking about it. Maybe I'm just comparing with the wrong people. I always expected them to go anyway. I think I just expected more for myself...
Hahaha see? Back to emoness... Hahaha No no no Hmn... let's see what else is going on in my life? I'm obsessed with horoscopes. Haha I know I'm annoying people by constantly asking their horoscopes but it's fun. :) I mean in terms of personality, it's super accurate and yet the 2 people who says that the same fact applies to them seem different in every way. Haha freaky right? I mean I was writing a birthday letter for my friend that day and was looking up our horoscope compatibilities on ideas on things to write. Haha I love the way they described our 'friendship'. Haha especially how we'd always argue who's the most dominant among us. The description solved the argument perfectly for me. Haha maybe I should show her the site one day. But yea, am loving horoscopes and I'm not gonna stop checking them out. I just found something out... :( I am incompatible with every member of my immediate family. My mom's an aquarius, dad's a libra, one bro's an Aries and my other bro's a Scorpio (which is either super compatible or super incompatible) Maybe compatibility leans more to love but it's just...sad... It kinda explains alot though...Sigh
Yea that's about it I guess... Am still debating with myself whether I should do a little post on Repo. XD Yea, I know everyone's bored of my talking about it. I just realised I never did do a post about Repo though even if my tumblr's full of it. Maybe I should do a full post then? Haha Ok, I'll compromise, I'll write a bit of how Repo is affecting my life now, and if I'm in the mood I shall do a full Repo post. :) Ok let's see, currently I'm not watching Repo as often as I used to cause I think I replayed the songs one too many times. Shhh don't tell the Repo gang on Fb. Even so, I seem more obsessed with Repo than a couple of weeks ago. Maybe it's the FB group, who are a wonderful group of people who are like me, spending their lives waiting impatiently for a sequel. Maybe it's the stage musical which I am virtually unable to find any info about but I am crazy obsessed with their songs. (Chase the Morning is bloody uplifting but the verses are way too draggy) Or maybe it's cause I managed to convince Li Chin to watch and like it, so now I'm more confident in asking other people to watch it. Maybe it's just my fanfics that are pulling me back into that world. Even so, I hope my obsession with Repo will last. I have noticed my obsessions fading rather quickly now and that's just depressing. Even so, I'm getting rather disillusioned about getting a sequel though...and that just gets me down. I'm trying my best though to trend #RepoOpera and I hope you guys would do the same. While Repo would always be Terrance's baby, he has Molting now and I guess he is moving on. I got into Repo pretty late though...most real fans of the show has probably given up waiting. I guess this obsession will fade over time if no news of a sequel is coming out soon but I guess until I give up my obsession on Bill Moseley (and/or Nivek Ogre) I would always be excited for a Repo sequel. I think the speed I move through my obsessions really depress me though. I mean I know of people who hold their obsession for years. Then again, I look back at some of my obsessions and wonder what the hell was I thinking. (I used to be obsessed with a pokemon for heaven's sake) But right now, even just thinking about giving up Repo and Bill just depresses me. (Haha see, emo again) Haha it's official, I must make it a point to post about Repo. Haha
Well, I guess I should really end now. It's nice to know I have finally gotten my original writing style back (probably around the time I wrote the piece about Michael Jackson's death?) Haha Maybe cause this is literal mumblings and not much emoness in it (well less than usual) and all the brackets I'm using. Haha it feels familiar. I think with tumblr and facebook updates, there's really less to blog about. And yet, this post is filled with everything and yet nothing. Haha it's refreshing though. Well alright then, it's 5.40 in the morning, I really should get to bed. Goodnight everyone (or for the more hardworking of you, good morning). :) Nice chatting with you. :)
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