The thing is for a long time I wanted to take down my birthday from my fb page but I never got around to doing it. I mean I dun mind putting it back up like after my birthday but just around my birthday I wanted to take it down. I mean, I know a lot of people do it, trying to see which of their friends 'remember' their birthday. The thing is, I'm one of those people who NEVER remembers anyone's birthday. Maybe last time, before the time of handphone reminders and facebook, I could remember a couple but the rest, forget it.
Even so, I always wanted to do it, just to see who remembered. Actually no, not really. Not to see who remembered, whether the ones that were important enough remembered. I mean, I dunno, I think anyone who's taken off the birthday from FB would understand. I was never the type to go around butthurt when no one remembered when's my birthday when the question came up, cause my memory was easily the worst. But i tried to always make sure (recently at least) that the when it came close to the month, to ensure that we had something planned.
So I guess I expect the same in return at least.
The problem is, I'm actually terrified that no one will remember. The thing is that like I said, I'd expect the same. So I'd rather that they remember last minute/on that day through facebook then not remember at all. I don't think I'd recover after that kind of disappointment. (Well I always say that but I seem to be annoyingly more stronger than I think I am)
The thing is this year is totally different. Well I say this year but it's more of a couple of days thing. For any of you who follow my blog but haven't caught up with me, I'm currently staying away from home for Uni. So it so happens, I have no class for my birthday and so I can go home for the weekend or so. And so because of the long hols I spoiled my friend's birthday plans for me (so yes, they did remember) but I decided heading home was so much more important and it must have been some weird fate thing that cancelled all my classes for my birthday and the day after. ^_^ So I dunno, I dun really care so much if they dun celebrate for me since I won't be here for so long nor do I really care if my group doesn't remember cause I didn't really tell them I would be going back.
So this year will be the year I finally take off my birthday from fb. I guess I'll be too happy being back home to actually bother who remembered and who didn't. And honestly, getting birthday wishes from people I've never spoken to before or barely know or lost contact with in years annoys me. Yes, bitchy I know. But I dunno, I've made it a point to only wish people on my FB notification that I actually am close/still talk to/in my uni (and that's rather variable too). I dunno, I guess it relates back to the whole 'not wanting people who don't actually care about me at my funeral' (wow that would be a rather empty funeral, wouldn't it). But I dunno, to me wishing me or even being the first to wish me on my birthday (if im not really close to you) doesn't prove you care about me. Just proves that you are on FB way too much but I digress.
Actually, I dunno what's the point of this post honestly. I just had the idea to write. Haha I don't think I've written so much in so long. @_@ This is Med School. Or maybe it's just me. I don't write anything about moving to a new city or life there but instead I write a long musing on taking down my birthday from fb.
So...hows life?
I guess the basic summary would be:
- There's way more time then I thought.
- Like seriously, I have what, 1 class a day.
- I think I sleep much more than I did at home.
- If I thought I rarely studied before, this is worse because there is kinda no classes and no notes.
- I don't hate talking to patients so much anymore (still hate it but dun feel er... can't describe it... just me overreading stuff I guess).
- I'm really sick of maggi mee and soup.
- I've become much less fussier with food. (Vegetables and spicy food still scare me though)
- Never noticed the amount of social interaction I needed before I begin feeling weird.
- Unfortunately my brand of social interactions involve other people talking and me listening and maybe adding a bit here and there which makes people annoyed with me cause I wanted the 'talking session'.
- I'm so sick of walking.
- Is there anything else?
- I'm so sick of seeing the same 14 people everyday.
- Ok I kid but seriously, you don't see anyone else besides your housemates and your group members
- I zon out alot.
- Yes I know this is nothing new but I think it's an achievement to consistently doing it standing up.
- As my group mate asked me (and I wonder the same thing), is there actually a class I pay attention to?
- Yes this is generally what my notes look like so this is what my summary will look like.
- Can't think of anything to add.
- I realize I'm a very honest and straightforward person.
- What? Me? Really?
- Yea, I dun really hide things from people. But they need to ask me first, I won't say it out of nowhere.
- I'm (still) extremely desperate to get a boyfriend. xD
- I was promised boyfriends in Uni
- Hellooooooo I'm still single
- Ahem, sorry. Might be a bit high.
- No idea why.
- You know what? I should try blogging drunk one time and see what turns up.
- I need an opportunity to get drunk first though
- Meh, that's all I can think off...
- K. Hopefully I'll update soon.
- I know. I know. My last (real) post was ages ago.
- Never really had the mood for writing though
- K then, see ya soon. :)
- Byez
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