OKOK CHILL GUYZ I'm updating my blog. Haha SORRY just haven't had a decent writing mood in ages, still dun really have it atm. So this post will probably be really short...or whiny haha... WAIT WAIT dun kill me, let me thing of what to write.

First agenda would probably be, I'VE BEEN A MED STUDENT FOR A WHOLE SEM NOW. I can say very firmly now that I still don't know whether I will be happy in this line. Don't get me wrong, I can make this work that much I know... I just still dunno whether I will like this. I don't like interacting with people... I'm glad I'm a doctor so people come to me instead I approaching them but still... I'm glad patient interviews have a set format but if you ask me to think of how to really talk to them, interact with an emotional patient, patient motivation...I'm stumped... Exams I think I can perform...real life? That's why I wanna stick to surgery...less talking more action but then...I've seriously been rethinking surgery (and Oncology but that's a separate matter) I mean the practical parts are the most fun parts but... I dunno lar... I'm just rethinking it.

I really hate how our 1 sem is only 3 months. The lectures become really cramped up and there's just not enough time. Only 3 months of being a proud member of Group G, next sem new group but hopefully same friends. Haha 3 months was surprisingly enough time for me to form new bonds. I think it's because of transition camp and how we are the same group for EVERYTHING. So yea, my gang spend nearly every minute in campus together until sick of their faces d. LOLZ kidding. But for some of the group 3 months is certainly not enough to be close, esp if we don't spend lunch together. (And you have no idea how hard it is to take a group picture. Someone is always missing.) So anyway new group...hopefully not a kiasu one that needs all the pbl presentations to be perfect and all that shit. X/ I still think it's a real waste of time...but I'm still holding on to the hope we'll feel like House soon. XD

Exams? Haha... I just wanna pass that's all I can say. I'm so not used to the feeling of being totally average (or below average...whichever) To think that the only thing I'm (partially) good at is studies/exams it's a real blow to my ego. Haha Oh well, as long as I don't debate with any pros I can keep the illusion that I'm a good debater. XD Oh well... I guess new group new image? Haha I think I must reel myself in during any group sharing sessions...Lolz It's like my mouth has no filter and I have to pour out my soul. X/ Yikes... Haha Er...anyway exams... It was hard... so I'm relying on everyone doing badly too? Haha yea I know that's mean... but what can you do in Medicine... I don't think I did that badly in OSCE but I know I can do better. More practice maybe? I realize anatomy is not that bad for me if it isn;t taught in 'lecture' style. When we explained it to each other, it seemed so much simpler. I'm trying to use songs for Pharmacology but it's a REALLY short term method...so we'll see how that works out for more drugs. @_@

Hmn... what else can I talk about... Haha I'M OBSESSED WITH RUMPLESTILSKIN/BELLE. What's this? My first straight OTP in years (or issit ever? I can't recall). Haha I FINALLY get why girls seem to like chic flicks so much and romance novels. *_* Haha I've been blasting love songs non-stop. Haha I feel like I'm the one in love. XD I watched that ep what 4 times? Haha Beauty and the Beast indeed. *_* Screw Stockholm syndrome, that doesn't exist = P If season 2 doesn't give them a Happy Ending and Rumple finding his son, I'm gonna go kill someone. OR WORSE pull a leaf out of Game of Thrones book and start killing people off. >_>

Haha okok enough about that...what else? I need writing inspiration? Haha...I feel like writing but I have no inspiration...My inspiration only hits when I'm busy or exams are coming. Haiz... I dunno if it's expectations or what but when I think something I've written is nice and I read it again, it's probably narmy and it sucks but when I think something I've written is not up to par to my usual standards, I'm usually (pleasantly) surprised when I re-read it. Haha I need a second opinion but people will generally give you good comments or compliments even if it sucks... Meh...all my recent fanfics are Repo anyway and no one really watches it...

Haha...ok now I know I'm just writing for the sake of writing...This is getting really long. Ok guyz read this long post and worship it, love it. XD It's likely a LONG time before I write again (or tomorrow, who knows, my moods are sporadic XD) Ok then guyz CIAOZ!!!