Small town homecoming queen
She's the star in this scene
There's no way to deny she's lovely
Perfect skin, perfect hair
Perfumed hearts everywhere
Tell myself that inside she's ugly
Maybe I'm just jealous
I can't help but hate her
Secretly I wonder if my boyfriend wants to date her

Urgh! Trials are in about a weeks time. I should be studying but meh... It's annoying when I just have this sudden burst of depression. Not upset mind you just rather sudden bursts of helplessness and sadness. Maybe it's the exams coming up but I dunno. Sometimes I can pin the blame on something or rather like bitches or trust issues or just the whole I hate my life thing. The thing is I'm ok sometimes or when I should be angry I'm just blargh! It's annoying.

She is the prom queen I'm in the marching band
She is a cheerleader I'm sitting in the stands
She gets the top bunk I'm sleeping on the floor
She's Miss America and I'm just the girl next door

I always had some sort of plan after SPM. Lepak kau kau until the results came out (maybe a part-time job). Maybe a chance to go Australia. NS has ruin it. Those idiots can't even tell us when is our batch so I can join a college that clashes wih the time. Right now I'm like WTH am I suppose to do. I can't compare scholarships if I want to go for the January intake as most of them are after SPM results. I may not even get a chance to go Australia because of all this confusion. I feel so... dragged... like everything has spun out of control.

Senior class president
She must be heaven sent
She was never the last one standing
A backseat debutaunt
Everything that you want
Never to harsh or too demanding
Maybe I'll admit it
I'm a little bitter
Everybody loves her but I just wanna hit her

I see my friends and I dread the end of the year. What are the chances of us keeping in touch after the school year ends? Maybe Pik Ee, Aisyah, Kuan Ngee, still will contact I don't know lar... But what about the rest Helen, Sarah, Syikin, Lets, Steph, the boys etc. It does feel like we won't see each other again no matter what anyone says. I know I'll miss everyone so much and yet...People say lets move to another chapter... but why must we leave everyone behind?

She is the prom queen I'm in the marching band
She is a cheerleader I'm sitting in the stands
She gets the top bunk I'm sleeping on the floor
She's Miss America and I'm just the girl next door
Oh and I'm just the girl next door

Haha that's about it guys. Enjoy the holidays and good luck for trials. Miss you guys.

I don't know why I'm feeling sorry for myself
I spend all my time wishing that I was someone else

She is the prom queen I'm in the marching band
She is a cheerleader I'm sitting in the stands
I get a little bit, she gets a little more
She's Miss America and... she's Miss America
I'm just the girl next door...