HAH! Take that self-deprecating voice! Take that!

Hey guys. Wanted to take the time to tell you how much I appreciated what you guys have done for my birthday. I'm so sorry I've cause you guyz to waste so much of your study time. I know how much you guyz study and I'm so sorry and I really appreciate it. :)

I wanted to reply to your letters one by one but then I realized that I'd have nothing to write for the letters I'd swear I'd write to you all after A2. I'd just wanted to say that your letters made me grin in reminiscence and am touched by everything you have said. I had honestly no idea you had thought of me so or that certain memories had affected you in the way you described.

I love you guys so much and I dread the moment we will part. Spending time with you guys is the only reason I have decided not to apply for study leave because I don't want to waste any more time especially those of you who decided to flee the country. :( Can I kidnap you and tie you somewhere? UK is very far away. Singapore wouldn't be so bad.

I will never forget the last year and a half and all the memories we have shared. I pray we'd continue forging this memories even far in the future. Hey a girl can dream can't she? :D

ISAT

Haha ok last thing to worry about before A2 is over. Now can concentrate on the stupid exam instead of goofing off and updating my blog...oh. Haha do you know we had to sign a non-disclosure contract. I mean seriously? Paranoid much. No wonder it was so hard to any information related to it. Didn't expect it to be so tough though... but i guess it could have been worst. By the 50th question I was begging it to end. No more no more. Me and Shu Whey were literally lying on the board separating us and doing the test like that. T_T Yikes. Thank god for the math questions. If not I think I'd have fallen asleep on the table already. Haha k lar I wanna go 'study' already. Ciaoz

an anodyne makes you feel good

Just trying out something new. Hopefully this will earn me some money and increase creativity. :)

FAIL

Mwahahahahahahaha I failed Physics. I'm so proud of myself it's my first fail. Hahaha I bet you all expected me to emo right? Haha I was grinning throughout Physics class and couldn't stop. Don't ask me why, maybe cause that's what I expected to get with only 3 studied chapters and me being sick on the same day. Expected to get at least 1 crapping mark for application. Haiz there goes my queen of crapping status. XD Haha overall my results were about expected, maths was a grade higher and bio about a grade lower. Doesn't matter I have very colourful results this time. XD

Okay so it seemed like ranting day on blogs in general (and some facebooks) so I decided to join them as well. Pet peeves about exam reactions that I can't stand the most:-

1. Post Exam: OMG I am so failing this exam. I would be so happy if I could just pass. Post results: Nooooooooooooo I got a C/D. Why didn't I get an A/B? Ok so I know most people don't really have a problem with this but I do. It irritates me to no end. I mean if you think you'd get a B after the exam just say so. Why do you have to go around saying about how much you'd fail if you didn't mean it? Seriously hope and expectation are 2 different things. I expected my Thinking Skills to be B, I hoped it would be A. I got an A, thank god but if I had a B after going around telling people I expected it, I'm not going to go moan about how sad it is I didn't get an A. Haha maybe said people just went around telling people they will fail because they don't want to seem cocky or something but meh same diff after.
2. A: So how much did you get? B: Low >_< A: What is low? 80? If I was B, probably this would cue me walking away. Ok nvm, sarcastic answer maybe? I told myself I would have said that. Luckily no one did or they'd face my 3 hour sleep grumpiness. Ok I'd admit I've done this once or twice but I try to do it to those irritating people who tell me the same thing just to let them know how it feels. However that fails spectacularly and it's like giving them a green light to go on with it. Hence me only liking to tell my marks to people of same standard cause they tend to be a little more realistic.

Yeap thats my 2 main pet peeves about examination results. I probably have a couple more that I haven't experienced yet for mock so haven't really thought about it. Am glad we are out of secondary school where kiasuness and getting positions are over. Haiz seriously some people can be really irritating, I hate it when the people who are not connected start making comments. Ex, CS: Wah, you know if blabla's chinese not counted you are only higher than 1 mark!

Gee thanks I feel so much better now. This is your problem why? >_> Yea yea thank god I was over the kiasu phase by then or else I'd get into a full-blown argument with him. Haiz

Haha alright then. Am going to sit in the corner and puzzle what the hell I did wrong in chem. It was about the grade I expected but a low grade. Need to find out why.

Zydrate Anatomy

I was just reading it and then I wondered whether it was me you were talking about. I don't want to seem overly sensitive but sometimes you just have the sense of it and I do. I guess if you know I'm talking about you then it is true that you were talking about me. It's just the way it works. Is it wrong that I feel disappointed? I should have seen this coming from a mile away. Perhaps if this was a normal day I would have just apologized or ignored it but I'm too irritated and frustrated to care.

Perhaps if that's the way you really feel then maybe we should not remain friends because I can't change who I am. I am self-loathing by nature and I'm not doing it for attention. I'm sorry if you can't stand that but it's really not something I can change. I don't have time to go on and on and I'm not ready for a confrontation so I'm not going to say much more. I'm just irritated and I'd probably stop caring by the end of the week. If you weren't talking about me then I apologize for being overly sensitive and you can yell at me all you want. I just don't like 2-faced people and I was just growing to really care for you. Maybe I was wrong as usual and the feeling was just one-side? It doesn't matter I guess, I'm used to being alone and as they say Status Quo is God.