This is not some depressed thoughts or anything like that. I remember a long time ago I was playing? this website about a woman who died in her apartment and was not discovered until 3? or was it 6 months later (and that was cause of the smell). I never lived alone before. So I knew that would never be a problem.
But now I am alone.
I can try to imagine things realistically. I don't show up for work. People would assume I overslept/MC/EL etc. Maybe a whatsapp from the TL asking to explain myself. He wouldn't get an answer. He'd think I was avoiding him. Another day or two. Maybe the specialist finds out, maybe TL informs her, doesn't matter. An angry exclamation, "Please tell her to contact me ASAP." The TL would pass on the message. But I wouldn't answer. A week pass. Everyone assumes I MIA; maybe I quit HO, maybe I'm overwhelmed by stress. They write me off.
I guess how long it takes for me to be discovered would be how long before my parents start freaking out about me not answering. But it would take awhile. They'd assumed I was too tired to answer my calls. Too busy to reply to messages.
So how long before I'm discovered? I really have no clue. But it is a really sobering thought.
And a real flashing sign on how alone I truly am.
Whether anyone I am working with now would think/realize that there was something very wrong with me not showing up and not answering my messages/calls? To know me enough that I'm so insecure in my decisions that if I ever decided to leave for good, I'd ask a million and 1 people on their opinion.
